empty promises are as good as lies.

tags replies.
tingy: there you go, your thank you post.
adeline: i prefer calling it kiap kiap!
passerby: thanks!
tiffany: of course la. laopo mah. (:
xue: yea she told me so too. and, unless you have a guilty conscience, otherwise you wouldn't think that way. replied you over sms alr.
adeline: of course la. you're one of my dearest. (:
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work at iluma.
did opening alone.
was damn blur today.
i forgot to switch on the lights,
i forgot to close the machine cover,
i imagined that there are more knifes in the shop,
i keep forgetting what i wanted to do.
germaine caught my mistakes and she kept laughing.
she was so proud of her smoothies.
you should see her classic reactions when there is a smoothie order.
her eyes literally light up.
hahahaha.
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ended work and accompanied Germaine for her break.
had yogurt while she ate her home packed food.
homed after that.
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it's an extremely heart wrenching day today.
you failed to keep your promise.
you didn't even manage to carry it out in the first place.
i'm sick and tired of all these.
i'm so disappointed in you.
what happened to the trust that we built up over the years?
it's all gone now.
your friends matter more than building up the trust i have for you.
they matter more to you than keeping your promise to me.
i'm not angry, i'm just upset.
being upset and disappoint is worse than being angry.
at least,
anger allows you to vent it on things.
but being upset and disappointed doesn't go away that easily.
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our relationship is just like a ladder.
a shaky ladder, to be exact.
the first few steps are uncertain,
and hence, you exercise caution while being on it.
as you climb higher,
your confidence build up.
and when the ladder finally gives way,
you fall further down.
that's how i'm feeling now.