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visit or not to vist,
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Friday, March 19, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
empty promises are as good as lies.
tags replies.
tingy: there you go, your thank you post.
adeline: i prefer calling it kiap kiap!
passerby: thanks!
tiffany: of course la. laopo mah. (:
xue: yea she told me so too. and, unless you have a guilty conscience, otherwise you wouldn't think that way. replied you over sms alr.
adeline: of course la. you're one of my dearest. (:
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work at iluma.
did opening alone.
was damn blur today.
i forgot to switch on the lights,
i forgot to close the machine cover,
i imagined that there are more knifes in the shop,
i keep forgetting what i wanted to do.
germaine caught my mistakes and she kept laughing.
she was so proud of her smoothies.
you should see her classic reactions when there is a smoothie order.
her eyes literally light up.
hahahaha.
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ended work and accompanied Germaine for her break.
had yogurt while she ate her home packed food.
homed after that.
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it's an extremely heart wrenching day today.
you failed to keep your promise.
you didn't even manage to carry it out in the first place.
i'm sick and tired of all these.
i'm so disappointed in you.
what happened to the trust that we built up over the years?
it's all gone now.
your friends matter more than building up the trust i have for you.
they matter more to you than keeping your promise to me.
i'm not angry, i'm just upset.
being upset and disappoint is worse than being angry.
at least,
anger allows you to vent it on things.
but being upset and disappointed doesn't go away that easily.
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our relationship is just like a ladder.
a shaky ladder, to be exact.
the first few steps are uncertain,
and hence, you exercise caution while being on it.
as you climb higher,
your confidence build up.
and when the ladder finally gives way,
you fall further down.
that's how i'm feeling now.
tingy: there you go, your thank you post.
adeline: i prefer calling it kiap kiap!
passerby: thanks!
tiffany: of course la. laopo mah. (:
xue: yea she told me so too. and, unless you have a guilty conscience, otherwise you wouldn't think that way. replied you over sms alr.
adeline: of course la. you're one of my dearest. (:
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work at iluma.
did opening alone.
was damn blur today.
i forgot to switch on the lights,
i forgot to close the machine cover,
i imagined that there are more knifes in the shop,
i keep forgetting what i wanted to do.
germaine caught my mistakes and she kept laughing.
she was so proud of her smoothies.
you should see her classic reactions when there is a smoothie order.
her eyes literally light up.
hahahaha.
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ended work and accompanied Germaine for her break.
had yogurt while she ate her home packed food.
homed after that.
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it's an extremely heart wrenching day today.
you failed to keep your promise.
you didn't even manage to carry it out in the first place.
i'm sick and tired of all these.
i'm so disappointed in you.
what happened to the trust that we built up over the years?
it's all gone now.
your friends matter more than building up the trust i have for you.
they matter more to you than keeping your promise to me.
i'm not angry, i'm just upset.
being upset and disappoint is worse than being angry.
at least,
anger allows you to vent it on things.
but being upset and disappointed doesn't go away that easily.
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our relationship is just like a ladder.
a shaky ladder, to be exact.
the first few steps are uncertain,
and hence, you exercise caution while being on it.
as you climb higher,
your confidence build up.
and when the ladder finally gives way,
you fall further down.
that's how i'm feeling now.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
hypocrites
before i start with my post,
i want to thank beryl low wei ting for being such an awesome sister.
though she's extremely annoying sometimes,
but she's always there for me,
listening to my sorrows and heartaches.
love you tingy dear.
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just came back after watching Breakout with baby dee at esplanade.
thumbs up for the show.
can't wait to go for the next one. (:
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work at Woodlands Ring Secondary school yesterday.
sold chocolates with aunty again.
sales was so good that we sold out for most of the items.
record breaking sales ever.
aunty gave me ritter sport chocolate, gummy bears, and 2 boxes of chocolates.
she was really nice and funny la.
she asked me if i smelt something nice,
and i didn't smell anything.
after awhile she realised that it was my perfume.
and then she asked:
aunty: you used perfume is it?
me: yup, why?
aunty: very nice leh. what brand ah?
me: DKNY. it's the green apple be-delicious one.
aunty: Ohh. expensive?
me: quite. i couldn't bear to buy it despite wanting it so much. and my best friend bought it for me for christmas last year.
aunty: WAH YOUR FRIEND SO GOOD. YOUNGSTERS THESE DAYS VERY GOOD TO EACH OTHER AH.
me: hahaha, she's my laopo mah.
aunty: AIYO, CLOSE UNTIL CAN MARRY EACH OTHER.
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laughed non stop.
hehehe,
thanks laopo for the perfume. (:
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hypocrite: a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold in order to conceal his or her real feelings or motives.
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i mean, it's a fact that everybody practice hipocrisy at some point of time in their lives.
towards certain people, and for certain reasons,
such behaviour is shown.
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in my opinion,
if i dislike somebody and i bitch about that person,
it is unlikely that i will ask that person out to catch up,
or some shopping trip or gathering.
i mean,
i obviously dislike you.
so why should i make myself miserable by spending time with you,
and then getting annoyed by your actions and after that,
i'll bitch about you again.
sadly enough,
most people do that.
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i don't understand why do some people behave like this.
for example,
you bitch to me about this particular person,
and claim that you can't tolerate her nonsense anymore.
and then the next thing i know,
you're blogging about an outing that you've enjoyed so much with that particular person.
posting pictures
and then after that,
you come and bitch to me about things that the person did.
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i mean,
if you really dislike him/her so much,
why bother asking that person out?
or why even bother going out with that person?
if i really dislike somebody,
and that person has successfully made me hate him/her,
i wouldn't even bother going out with him/her.
and it's true.
i made all sorts of excuses to avoid meeting this particular person.
the sight of him/her annoys the hell out of me.
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and then,
i know that another particular person doesn't like me because of something that i did not even do.
fine.
you can carry on maligning.
because in the first place,
you are not even someone that matters to me.
to the extent,
if something tragic happened to you,
i won't even be bothered.
you will get your retribution.
and since you tell others how much you dislike me,
why did you even bother telling me how much you care for me?
and if i needed someone you'll always be there for me?
give me a break you hypocritical bitch.
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another one,
she blogged about things that were obviously referring to me.
and she made use of me for her own selfish desires.
she told me that she regarded me as a very close friend,
someone like a sister.
and yet,
she bitched about me to others,
and obviously in her blog posts.
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what do you call this?
i call this being a two faced bitch.
which also means, a hypocrite!
she claimed that i'm her close friend right?
but my boyfriend matters more to her than me.
in various situations,
she obviously preferred having my boyfriend around than me.
and she'll only ask my boyfriend out, not me.
what rubbish is this, seriously?
i can't stand it.
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i admit,
i, myself, am a hypocrite sometimes.
sometimes we get hypocritical to prevent unwanted situations to happen.
it's something like a white lie.
but when i do bitch about someone,
i definitely don't go and act close to them .
neither will i organise outings with them or initiate contact.
the thought of allowing myself to suffer in their presence just puts me off.
people,
just give me a break.
don't come bitching to me about others,
and then act happy and close to them.
it's just plain disgusting.
i want to thank beryl low wei ting for being such an awesome sister.
though she's extremely annoying sometimes,
but she's always there for me,
listening to my sorrows and heartaches.
love you tingy dear.
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just came back after watching Breakout with baby dee at esplanade.
thumbs up for the show.
can't wait to go for the next one. (:
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work at Woodlands Ring Secondary school yesterday.
sold chocolates with aunty again.
sales was so good that we sold out for most of the items.
record breaking sales ever.
aunty gave me ritter sport chocolate, gummy bears, and 2 boxes of chocolates.
she was really nice and funny la.
she asked me if i smelt something nice,
and i didn't smell anything.
after awhile she realised that it was my perfume.
and then she asked:
aunty: you used perfume is it?
me: yup, why?
aunty: very nice leh. what brand ah?
me: DKNY. it's the green apple be-delicious one.
aunty: Ohh. expensive?
me: quite. i couldn't bear to buy it despite wanting it so much. and my best friend bought it for me for christmas last year.
aunty: WAH YOUR FRIEND SO GOOD. YOUNGSTERS THESE DAYS VERY GOOD TO EACH OTHER AH.
me: hahaha, she's my laopo mah.
aunty: AIYO, CLOSE UNTIL CAN MARRY EACH OTHER.
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laughed non stop.
hehehe,
thanks laopo for the perfume. (:
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hypocrite: a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold in order to conceal his or her real feelings or motives.
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i mean, it's a fact that everybody practice hipocrisy at some point of time in their lives.
towards certain people, and for certain reasons,
such behaviour is shown.
-
in my opinion,
if i dislike somebody and i bitch about that person,
it is unlikely that i will ask that person out to catch up,
or some shopping trip or gathering.
i mean,
i obviously dislike you.
so why should i make myself miserable by spending time with you,
and then getting annoyed by your actions and after that,
i'll bitch about you again.
sadly enough,
most people do that.
-
i don't understand why do some people behave like this.
for example,
you bitch to me about this particular person,
and claim that you can't tolerate her nonsense anymore.
and then the next thing i know,
you're blogging about an outing that you've enjoyed so much with that particular person.
posting pictures
and then after that,
you come and bitch to me about things that the person did.
-.-
i mean,
if you really dislike him/her so much,
why bother asking that person out?
or why even bother going out with that person?
if i really dislike somebody,
and that person has successfully made me hate him/her,
i wouldn't even bother going out with him/her.
and it's true.
i made all sorts of excuses to avoid meeting this particular person.
the sight of him/her annoys the hell out of me.
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and then,
i know that another particular person doesn't like me because of something that i did not even do.
fine.
you can carry on maligning.
because in the first place,
you are not even someone that matters to me.
to the extent,
if something tragic happened to you,
i won't even be bothered.
you will get your retribution.
and since you tell others how much you dislike me,
why did you even bother telling me how much you care for me?
and if i needed someone you'll always be there for me?
give me a break you hypocritical bitch.
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another one,
she blogged about things that were obviously referring to me.
and she made use of me for her own selfish desires.
she told me that she regarded me as a very close friend,
someone like a sister.
and yet,
she bitched about me to others,
and obviously in her blog posts.
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what do you call this?
i call this being a two faced bitch.
which also means, a hypocrite!
she claimed that i'm her close friend right?
but my boyfriend matters more to her than me.
in various situations,
she obviously preferred having my boyfriend around than me.
and she'll only ask my boyfriend out, not me.
what rubbish is this, seriously?
i can't stand it.
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i admit,
i, myself, am a hypocrite sometimes.
sometimes we get hypocritical to prevent unwanted situations to happen.
it's something like a white lie.
but when i do bitch about someone,
i definitely don't go and act close to them .
neither will i organise outings with them or initiate contact.
the thought of allowing myself to suffer in their presence just puts me off.
people,
just give me a break.
don't come bitching to me about others,
and then act happy and close to them.
it's just plain disgusting.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
sunny island
suntanning with adeline and baby dee.
met up at outram park mrt station before heading down to sentosa.
met up at outram park mrt station before heading down to sentosa.
hehehe.
and i prepared potato salad and mangoes.
and i prepared potato salad and mangoes.
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and the sun was BURNING hot.
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adeline emo,
because i'm so far away from her.
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dee drew a tortoise on the sand.
and i thought it was intelligent to add the eyes and the mouth.
both of them laughed at me after that,
because the tortoise is meant to be facing downwards.
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and then we went for some luge thing,
it was horrifying la.
so scary.
washed up after that,
and then we went to eat.
baby dee followed us,
but he left for dinner elsewhere with his flying instructor.
and so,
we had chicken rice.
13 dollars chicken rice per person.
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after dinner,
adeline and i went tiong bahru to kiap.
such a pleasant experience luh!
we met really nice people.
hehehe.
even the arcade aunty who has a "i-go-by-the-book
adeline caught a melody stuffed toy for me.
it's super cute you know!
it walks!
AHHHH.
so damn cute.
we went home feeling happy.
baby dee waited for me at the mrt station.
i was damn shocked to see him there la!
showed him the melody,
and he thought it was adorable too.
hehehe.
i love you la adeline. (:
our next date,
31st march!
hehehehe, can't wait!
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oh yes,
my ear piercing.
i googled and it's called the 'snug'.
i want to remove the stud and replace it with a bigger stud.
but it kinda hurts,
so i don't really have the guts to touch it.
i guess i'll just leave it alone for awhile.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Tags
okay, reply tags.
my bad habit again.
charmaine: of course, she's my wife. (: duh. rapers shouldn't even exist la. ROAR.
tingie : love you la. (:
hui hui: no worries. i'm okay. (:
adeline : so fierce for what sia you. ):
amanda : HELLO. i'll link you. (:
xueryl : yup!
tiffany : DUH. he's like super duper cute lah. even YOU agree. AHHHH.
adeline : HEHEHE. LET'S GO KIAP ON TUES! DON'T TELL XQ. :X
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today is going to be a damn boring day.
tingie's going for paramore's concert,
and i'll be trapped at home cos one of us HAS to be at home, always.
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this sucks lah.
hur hur.
i wanna go out.
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my bad habit again.
charmaine: of course, she's my wife. (: duh. rapers shouldn't even exist la. ROAR.
tingie : love you la. (:
hui hui: no worries. i'm okay. (:
adeline : so fierce for what sia you. ):
amanda : HELLO. i'll link you. (:
xueryl : yup!
tiffany : DUH. he's like super duper cute lah. even YOU agree. AHHHH.
adeline : HEHEHE. LET'S GO KIAP ON TUES! DON'T TELL XQ. :X
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today is going to be a damn boring day.
tingie's going for paramore's concert,
and i'll be trapped at home cos one of us HAS to be at home, always.
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this sucks lah.
hur hur.
i wanna go out.
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Saturday, March 6, 2010
stuffed happiness.
seriously,
if i were to set up a shop,
i'll open a kiap kiap shop.
it's extremely profitable luh!
those machines are like money grabbers.
and it's kinda addictive too.
i mean,
who can stop with just one try?
you'll definitely be tempted to carry on playing till you get that damn toy!
and the hello kitty pot i won from kiap kiap with CS and xinyi!
if i were to set up a shop,
i'll open a kiap kiap shop.
it's extremely profitable luh!
those machines are like money grabbers.
and it's kinda addictive too.
i mean,
who can stop with just one try?
you'll definitely be tempted to carry on playing till you get that damn toy!
and the hello kitty pot i won from kiap kiap with CS and xinyi!
haha.
so cute right?
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and also,
the handphone keychaines that the guy in the shop gave.
i mean,
i attempted to catch it,
but failed after spending 5 bucks.
and he 'dropped' all these inside the box. (:
SO ADORABLE RIGHT OMG.
irresistable lah!
gave it away to CS, xinyi, laopo, tingy, and emm's one is still with me!
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few weeks ago,
i helped my sister to wash her beloved stuffed toy.
it's 11 years old this year.
it came from the macdonalds hello kitty craze.
and she's super attached to him.
his name is xiao di.
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before washing.
extremely grey, dusty, and DISGUSTING.
YUCK.
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after soaking!
a little bit whiter after adding bleach.
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and then,
hang him up to dry!
so adorable.
hahaha.
it's so old that the hair is no longer there anymore.
and he has holes in his pants.
and mummy sewed a button on his shirt because it broke.
so poor thing.
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and of course,
i have my little cutie too.
his name is cookie.
and he's the first present i received from baby dee!
cookie is 5 years old this year.
half a decade old!
*screams!*
he's so cute.
laopo took this picture last year!
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actually,
i have no idea why am i posting this weird post on stuffed toys.
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anyway,
brief update.
life's been quite alright.
revolving around work, stoning at home, and friends.
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went out with ellene that day.
wanted to have dessert buffet at ion orchard, swensens!
had a HARD time looking for the swensens.
it's located at a damn ulu section la.
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it's damn big and empty when we went there.
after touring the dessert section,
we decided to give the buffet a miss,
and eat their normal main course instead.
we felt quite dumb after that because we could have met up at an ordinary swensens that is located near our homes.
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but oh well.
we talked and talked and talked,
and we filled each other up with 2 years worth of updating.
eventually ended up at pasir ris to pierce our ears!
finally had enough courage and motivation to pierce the bone inside my ear.
i like it very much!
(:
though it hurts alot.
ellene couldn't make up her mind on whether to pierce or not.
judging from the way i said 'OUCH!',
she decided against piercing the bone,
and she had the top of her ear pierced instead.
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roamed around whitesands and bought adorable earrings.
back to tampines and bought her book.
supposed to meet dearest adeline,
cancelled in the end.
but oh well,
suntanning next tues! can't wait!
homed after that.
really had a great day with her!
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thurs
tingy fell sick.
i think i spreaded my sickness to her.
accompanied her to the doctor,
and we had mac breakfast while waiting for her turn.
shhhhh.
mummy doesn't know that i brought her for macdonalds.
was very late by the time she collected her medicine.
flagged a cab and sent her home before going to work at iluma.
mabel came down in the morning and accompanied me for awhile.
she went off for work at parkway.
so funny la she.
the day passed and baby dee came to pick me up from work.
had some little squabbles on our way to school.
but everything turned out alright eventually.
he accompanied me to school to collect tickets for SCC's concert.
had dinner in school,
and he was envying the wide variety of food my school has.
went off to e!hub to catch a movie.
watched that jack neo show,
the one about slimming centres.
don't waste your money on it!
in my opinion, it's bullshit.
homed after that.
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friday.
it was a damn boring day.
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i stoned the whole day away at home.
didn't even bother to eat anything.
met mummy for dinner.
homed,
was on the standby mode to accompany ellene for drinking session because she wasn't feeling too happy. ):
eventually she didn't call me back.
ellene i hope you're okay!
watched tv and did 100 sit ups before sleeping.
i will and i must get my figure back.
i'm so fat now.
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today.
as usual,
stoned the morning away.
met laopo in the evening for dinner and yogurt.
off to school we went for SCC's concert.
and i was going gaga overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.............
laopo you know who la huh.
AHHHHH.
HE'S SO CUTE.
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had ramen ten for dinner and homed after that.
a siberian husky puppy was roaming around while i was walking home.
it's damn cute la!
and it sniffed my feet and followed me a little.
it's owner was following it on a bicycle.
so cute la.
alright.
i'm going off to bed now.
baby's clubbing now!
enjoy life la.
he's celebrating cos he passed his flying test and he's getting his license.
i'm so happy for him.
it's a damn good day.
lalala~
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
after thoughts.
as an afterthought,
i realised that my previous post was rather silly.
that temporary moment of emotions overwhelmed me.
friends,
of course, lovely ones.
i should have known that i have my lovely friends around me.
after putting a not-so-happy- msn nick,
at least 20 conversation windows popped out.
friends, asking what's wrong.
friends, asking what can they do to help.
and yet i blogged that ridiculous post?
i must have lost my sanity.
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and so,
feeling so dejected the whole night,
Ellene dear wanted to meet me for dessert buffet.
so yup,
she's gonna bring me.
and i'm so excited about it.
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supposed to make a trip down to school today.
but for several reasons,
it's postponed to tmr.
thank goodness Gary is okay with it.
shall go down to school after work tomorrow.
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to end,
thanks for everybody's concern,
and laopo please get well soon.
i realised that my previous post was rather silly.
that temporary moment of emotions overwhelmed me.
friends,
of course, lovely ones.
i should have known that i have my lovely friends around me.
after putting a not-so-happy- msn nick,
at least 20 conversation windows popped out.
friends, asking what's wrong.
friends, asking what can they do to help.
and yet i blogged that ridiculous post?
i must have lost my sanity.
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and so,
feeling so dejected the whole night,
Ellene dear wanted to meet me for dessert buffet.
so yup,
she's gonna bring me.
and i'm so excited about it.
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supposed to make a trip down to school today.
but for several reasons,
it's postponed to tmr.
thank goodness Gary is okay with it.
shall go down to school after work tomorrow.
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to end,
thanks for everybody's concern,
and laopo please get well soon.
pathetic
uh huh,
i AM pathetic.
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feeling so fucked up now.
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can't even find a friend to binge eating with me tmr.
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i am THAT pathetic.
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and i DESERVE it.
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CLARABEL LOW YOU SEE LA YOU.
EVERYDAY BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND.
NOW HE DON'T WANT YOU,
YOU GOT NO MORE FRIENDS.
YOU NEED SOMEONE,
NOBODY IS THERE.
WANT TO GO AND VENT YOUR ANGER?
WANT TO GO AND GORGE YOURSELF WITH ICE-CREAM?
WANT TO GO AND DROWN YOURSELF IN THE LAKE?
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GO LOR.
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NOBODY CARES.
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NOBODY IS THERE, ANYWAY.
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STUFF YOURSELF WITH ICE-CREAM,
ALLOW YOURSELF TO GET MORE SICK.
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NICE ONE CLARABEL LOW.
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YOUR LIFE IS FULFILLING.
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THUMBS UP FOR YOUR WONDERFUL LIFESTYLE.
i AM pathetic.
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feeling so fucked up now.
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can't even find a friend to binge eating with me tmr.
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i am THAT pathetic.
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and i DESERVE it.
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CLARABEL LOW YOU SEE LA YOU.
EVERYDAY BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND.
NOW HE DON'T WANT YOU,
YOU GOT NO MORE FRIENDS.
YOU NEED SOMEONE,
NOBODY IS THERE.
WANT TO GO AND VENT YOUR ANGER?
WANT TO GO AND GORGE YOURSELF WITH ICE-CREAM?
WANT TO GO AND DROWN YOURSELF IN THE LAKE?
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GO LOR.
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NOBODY CARES.
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NOBODY IS THERE, ANYWAY.
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STUFF YOURSELF WITH ICE-CREAM,
ALLOW YOURSELF TO GET MORE SICK.
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NICE ONE CLARABEL LOW.
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YOUR LIFE IS FULFILLING.
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THUMBS UP FOR YOUR WONDERFUL LIFESTYLE.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
love quizzes
LoveTest Results for:
Clarabel Low & Siok Xue Qian
LoveTest Questionnaire Analysis:
Siok Xue Qian will break up with you, Clarabel Low!
There are always ups and downs in every relationship. Although you think you know a lot about your partner already, you might want to spend some more quality time together. Love, trust, understanding, affection, honesty, tolerance and loyalty are very important factors for a successful relationship. Think about what's still missing in your relationship and how you could improve it.
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Should you dump your boyfriend?
Your responses indicate that you may want to dump your boyfriend. If you don't want to dump him, let him know that he needs to become more loving and caring towards you. He needs to take more initiatives to ensure that your love keeps on blooming.-
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work tmr,
still feeling very unwell.
cough, flu, sore throat.
ugh, sucks.
Monday, March 1, 2010
downhill
it's just like a roller coaster ride.
we went up,
then down really low,
and then back up a little,
and now,
all the way downnnnnn.
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there must be a reason why mothers are always the ones who nag.
they are the ones who always get paranoid over this and that.
they are the ones who get sensitive over the smallest issue.
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conclusion?
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FACE IT GUYS.
GIRLS ARE LIKE THAT.
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i mean,
nobody forced you to take us as your girlfriends.
and there you go complaining that we're stopping you from doing this and that,
and we are invading in your privacy and stuff like that?
there's a price to pay for having a girlfriend.
if you want personal space,
you're sick and tired of reporting your whereabouts to your girl,
THEN FOR GOD'S SAKE JUST BE SINGLE.
-
personal space rhymes with cheating ways.
-
if you're asking for personal space,
it means that you're allowing this relationship to go down the drain.
you need so much personal space?
then just get rid of your girl.
i'm sure you'll be able to breathe properly after that.
-
so now what?
i'm a toy?
something for you to manipulate?
hey,
you can't get the best of both worlds.
love and affection comes with responsibility.
you can't just expect us girls to be all sweet and loving,
and then you make noise when we start asking where you went?
what you did?
-
when we first got into a relationship,
it means that we accepted who you were, at that time.
and if you changed for the worse,
you can't possibly expect us to accept your bad changes right?
and when we don't,
you come and blame us for not being understanding,
you make noise when we try to stop you from becoming worse.
and then,
you get unhappy.
and the cycle repeats.
over the same issue over and over again.
-
i didn't stop you from meeting your friends.
but when you tell me you'll go home at a certain time,
and you CONSTANTLY fail to keep your promise,
how do you expect me to trust you again?
worse still,
when i asked you how are we gonna solve this?
you actually said you'll increase the time limit longer,
so that you can fulfil it.
what rubbish?
i was so upset because you KEPT going home late.
and then?
you come and tell me that the solution to this problem is to allow you to go home even later?
excuse me?
are your brains burnt or something?
no wait,
it's not your brains.
it's your heart.
-
your own selfish desires has overcomed the weight i have in your heart.
-
you know i detest smokers.
you know i went to the extremes to stop you from smoking.
but yet,
you did it again and again and again.
so what now?
i'm supposed to accept you as a smoker?
i'm supposed to allow you to smoke as and when you please?
NO WAY.
the boyfriend that i first had does not smoke.
so why should i change myself and accept a smoker boyfriend now?
just because you changed,
it doesn't mean that i have to accept.
and when that happens,
we start a war.
and then?
it all becomes my fault for not being understanding enough.
what on earth is this?
-
the boyfriend that i used to have dotes on me.
he devotes most of his free time to me.
i can accept it if you have commitments.
i know you are busy,
and i understand.
but why should i tolerate when you waste your sleeping time at night to do stupid things outside,
and reach home around 3 or 4am?
and then use your free time in the day to do your other stuff?
and then what am i left with?
i'm left with all the scrap transition time, you idiot.
the time i have with you is probably a few moments before you start classes,
a few moments before your cca starts,
a few moments before work?
why can't you use your rubbish doing night time to do your important things?
and then spend some quality time with me in the day?
WHY?
-
so you sacrifice your important stuff for spending rubbish time outside at night,
and then you sacrifice sleep for your important things,
and then you sacrifice me for your important things.
-
HUH?
-
time management, hello?
-
you know you are not like those ordinary kid out there,
who only has to juggle with schoolwork and probably cca.
you have your schoolwork,
you're the captain of your cca,
you have your flying commitments,
and there you are,
throwing hours of your life away,
doing nothing.
seriously,
what is this?
-
and when i rather you catch up on your sleep than waste time outside,
you start getting unhappy,
and our quarrels start all over again.
-
now what?
-
1. wash my hands off your affairs.
-
2. continue hoping for some miracle, and that you might return to the old you?
-
3. give up on this relationship as it's too tiring.
-
4. continue our up-down rollercoaster ride.
-
fuck off.
we went up,
then down really low,
and then back up a little,
and now,
all the way downnnnnn.
-
there must be a reason why mothers are always the ones who nag.
they are the ones who always get paranoid over this and that.
they are the ones who get sensitive over the smallest issue.
-
conclusion?
-
FACE IT GUYS.
GIRLS ARE LIKE THAT.
-
i mean,
nobody forced you to take us as your girlfriends.
and there you go complaining that we're stopping you from doing this and that,
and we are invading in your privacy and stuff like that?
there's a price to pay for having a girlfriend.
if you want personal space,
you're sick and tired of reporting your whereabouts to your girl,
THEN FOR GOD'S SAKE JUST BE SINGLE.
-
personal space rhymes with cheating ways.
-
if you're asking for personal space,
it means that you're allowing this relationship to go down the drain.
you need so much personal space?
then just get rid of your girl.
i'm sure you'll be able to breathe properly after that.
-
so now what?
i'm a toy?
something for you to manipulate?
hey,
you can't get the best of both worlds.
love and affection comes with responsibility.
you can't just expect us girls to be all sweet and loving,
and then you make noise when we start asking where you went?
what you did?
-
when we first got into a relationship,
it means that we accepted who you were, at that time.
and if you changed for the worse,
you can't possibly expect us to accept your bad changes right?
and when we don't,
you come and blame us for not being understanding,
you make noise when we try to stop you from becoming worse.
and then,
you get unhappy.
and the cycle repeats.
over the same issue over and over again.
-
i didn't stop you from meeting your friends.
but when you tell me you'll go home at a certain time,
and you CONSTANTLY fail to keep your promise,
how do you expect me to trust you again?
worse still,
when i asked you how are we gonna solve this?
you actually said you'll increase the time limit longer,
so that you can fulfil it.
what rubbish?
i was so upset because you KEPT going home late.
and then?
you come and tell me that the solution to this problem is to allow you to go home even later?
excuse me?
are your brains burnt or something?
no wait,
it's not your brains.
it's your heart.
-
your own selfish desires has overcomed the weight i have in your heart.
-
you know i detest smokers.
you know i went to the extremes to stop you from smoking.
but yet,
you did it again and again and again.
so what now?
i'm supposed to accept you as a smoker?
i'm supposed to allow you to smoke as and when you please?
NO WAY.
the boyfriend that i first had does not smoke.
so why should i change myself and accept a smoker boyfriend now?
just because you changed,
it doesn't mean that i have to accept.
and when that happens,
we start a war.
and then?
it all becomes my fault for not being understanding enough.
what on earth is this?
-
the boyfriend that i used to have dotes on me.
he devotes most of his free time to me.
i can accept it if you have commitments.
i know you are busy,
and i understand.
but why should i tolerate when you waste your sleeping time at night to do stupid things outside,
and reach home around 3 or 4am?
and then use your free time in the day to do your other stuff?
and then what am i left with?
i'm left with all the scrap transition time, you idiot.
the time i have with you is probably a few moments before you start classes,
a few moments before your cca starts,
a few moments before work?
why can't you use your rubbish doing night time to do your important things?
and then spend some quality time with me in the day?
WHY?
-
so you sacrifice your important stuff for spending rubbish time outside at night,
and then you sacrifice sleep for your important things,
and then you sacrifice me for your important things.
-
HUH?
-
time management, hello?
-
you know you are not like those ordinary kid out there,
who only has to juggle with schoolwork and probably cca.
you have your schoolwork,
you're the captain of your cca,
you have your flying commitments,
and there you are,
throwing hours of your life away,
doing nothing.
seriously,
what is this?
-
and when i rather you catch up on your sleep than waste time outside,
you start getting unhappy,
and our quarrels start all over again.
-
now what?
-
1. wash my hands off your affairs.
-
2. continue hoping for some miracle, and that you might return to the old you?
-
3. give up on this relationship as it's too tiring.
-
4. continue our up-down rollercoaster ride.
-
fuck off.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
oh, like whatever.
and so,
papers are over, like finally.
i have to admit that i didn't put in much effort for both papers.
i don't expect good results because i don't deserve it.
but however,
luck was on my side.
and those that i studied came out.
-
Monday.
met laopo for lunch before the paper.
after lunch had yogurt and then went kiap kiap.
spent 5 bucks in the shop,
didn't catch anything,
but the guy that worked there was so nice la.
he dropped the toys into the box for me.
and he even allowed me to change it for the toys that i wanted.
had 7 or 8 super cute keychaines.
it's really super cute.
post pictures of them next time!
off we went to school.
and the happy me was so happy with the toys.
didn't even bother to revise my notes before the test.
after paper,
went off to plaza sing with banana xinyi and cs.
ate jap food,
and then,
kiap kiap!
omg.
spent hours in the shop,
each of us spent about 50 bucks.
brought a bag of toys home and a hello kitty pot.
-.-
exams caused us to lose our sanity.
Tuesday.
supposed to set off for genting with CS and emm.
4 days and 3 nights.
due to some unforeseen circumstances,
we decided not to go.
and there goes 100 bucks for hotel and transport.
rotted the day away at home.
Wednesday.
something made me REALLY mad.
i'm not gonna talk about it.
went for singing session with jia min and jin may.
totally moodless.
ended up lying on the sofa and allowing them to entertain me.
met laopo around 9.
had my dinner,
and then off we went to powerhouse.
anger venting session.
papers are over, like finally.
i have to admit that i didn't put in much effort for both papers.
i don't expect good results because i don't deserve it.
but however,
luck was on my side.
and those that i studied came out.
-
Monday.
met laopo for lunch before the paper.
after lunch had yogurt and then went kiap kiap.
spent 5 bucks in the shop,
didn't catch anything,
but the guy that worked there was so nice la.
he dropped the toys into the box for me.
and he even allowed me to change it for the toys that i wanted.
had 7 or 8 super cute keychaines.
it's really super cute.
post pictures of them next time!
off we went to school.
and the happy me was so happy with the toys.
didn't even bother to revise my notes before the test.
after paper,
went off to plaza sing with banana xinyi and cs.
ate jap food,
and then,
kiap kiap!
omg.
spent hours in the shop,
each of us spent about 50 bucks.
brought a bag of toys home and a hello kitty pot.
-.-
exams caused us to lose our sanity.
Tuesday.
supposed to set off for genting with CS and emm.
4 days and 3 nights.
due to some unforeseen circumstances,
we decided not to go.
and there goes 100 bucks for hotel and transport.
rotted the day away at home.
Wednesday.
something made me REALLY mad.
i'm not gonna talk about it.
went for singing session with jia min and jin may.
totally moodless.
ended up lying on the sofa and allowing them to entertain me.
met laopo around 9.
had my dinner,
and then off we went to powerhouse.
anger venting session.
toilet at vivo.
as usual, bourbon and cola.-
non stop dancing for more than 3 hours.
some guy asked to dance with me,
and i told him i'm lesbian.
he was shocked.
then he went back to his friends,
his friends laughed at him.
-
saw zhao wei.
shocked to see him there,
he was shocked to see me there too.
-
my poor feet was stepped/ jumped on by some stupid people 5 times at the dancefloor.
damn angry.
i swear i'm going to wear heels next time.
heels that are sharp and pointy.
i'll step them back.
i swear.
i shall ignore the fact that i will look damn tall with heels.
i don't care.
i had so many scratches and blisters la.
ROAR.
damn angry.
-
left the club at 3 plus.
went to our locker,
and a poor girl was sitting by the corner,
trying to open her locker.
but i think she was drunk,
and she had no friends with her.
she couldn't put her key into the keyhole.
we helped,
and realised that her key cannot open the locker.
i think she forgot which locker she kept her stuff in.
-
cabbed to laopo's place.
showered,
she lent me her clothes.
and then,
she cooked for me.
♥
mushrooms with prawns.
she knows i love mushrooms.
i felt so loved then!
and i forgot to mention,
we bought the mushrooms before we went to club.
that poor packet of mushrooms was stuffed into the locker.
tadah.made with love.
our legs were on the verge of breaking la.
so damn tired.
and she still insisted in cooking,
while i sat down at the kitchen and waited.
love you la laopo! (:
and we had maggie mee too.
ate while watching MTV,
lady gaga bad romance was featured.
:D
:D
:D
so in love with lady gaga!
everybody at the club went high when bad romance and poker face played.
:D
:D
:D
-
okay,
so we slept after that.
stephi, her dog,
squeezed with me again.
left her place in the morning.
so damn tired.
went home,
bathed and slept.
-
and so,
that was today.
had dinner at coffeeshop with daddy and tingy.
he ordered a bottle of tiger beer.
shared with him and he turned red really quickly after a few sips.
he then opted for sprite while i finished the rest of the beer.
-
supposed to go out with the girls tmr.
but i doubt i can make it becauseeeeeeeeeeee.
mum's on mc and dad's on leave and it's compulsary for me to stay at home.
what nonsense is this,
ROAR.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Greed
i don't get it.
why are humans greedy by nature?
why can't we all be satisfied with what we have?
it's so disgusting.
you have people who are power hungry.
greed for more power and control over certain things.
i don't get it.
what's with getting all the power and controlling something?
don't be dumb.
it just means added responsibilities.
hello?
life is tiring enough.
why are you looking for trouble for yourself?
it's okay to aspire to be a leader.
it's not okay to backstab people and push people down,
just to get yourself up.
disgusting.
-
and then you have people who are extreme attention seekers.
what do you need so much attention for?
so that more people can criticise you?
the more you try to get attention,
the more disgusted and amused people are.
what's wrong with leading an ordinary life?
with loving families, friends, and a partner.
why isn't that enough?
continue doing what you're doing.
you can just simply see the amount of hatred people have for you escalating.
-
next, overwhelmed by your own sexual needs and desires.
hello?
you need to fuck someone so much?
go and get a whore.
don't target young and innocent victims.
are you too broke to spend $50 on a prostitute?
if yes,
then just keep your fucking dick zipped inside your pants.
DO NOT LET IT OUT, DAMN IT.
ever so often,
we have cases of young girls getting raped or molested on their way home.
we have cases of girls getting molested during countdowns or events.
and you fuckers don't even let us off when we take public transport.
seriously,
just because we are young,
it doesn't mean that we are an easy target.
i have plenty of encounters with such assholes.
molesters, flashers.
i slapped a guy on the bus before.
i smacked a guy's hand on the train before.
i stepped on a guy's foot before.
a flasher followed me to my doorstep before.
a guy squeezed my butt in the swimming pool when i was young.
a classmate jumped onto me and hugged me in primary school.
and some others,
which i can't recall now.
you see!
why can't these horny bastards just keep themselves at home and watch porn?
pornography is so easily accessible now.
stop ruining the lives of our young ones in the society you faggots.
you destroy their lives,
you make them feel unworthy,
people look down on them,
and you SCAR them for life okay.
stupid assholes.
-
and the second kind,
boyfriends who take girls as sex slaves or toys.
it is OKAY, if you treat the girl well and you really love her.
it is NOT OKAY if you lie to the girl about how much you love her,
just for fucking's sake,
and then abandon her when you are done.
i admit,
sometimes we girls are too dumb,
because we get blinded over sweet talks easily.
BECAUSE WE TRUST THAT YOU REALLY LOVE US.
so bastards out there,
just STOP taking advantage of this weakness we have.
it's just simply disgusting.
and you know what?
i recently found out that guys in US are having a petition,
which is,
TO BE GIVEN A CHOICE OF WHETHER THEY SHOULD TAKE RESPONSIBILITY OF THE CHILD THAT THEY FATHERED.
omg.
what on earth is this?
hey,
when you guys put your fucking sperm inside us,
we are the ones who have to suffer okay.
suffer with the bloody symptoms,
the morning sickness,
the nauseous feelings.
we are the ones who have to bear with our body ballooning up into some enormous freak.
WE ARE THE ONES WHO HAVE TO AVOID CERTAIN KINDS OF FOOD OKAY.
we are also the poor ones who will be accused of not practising self love,
and we are the ones who will be mocked at by others.
for those young girls who are pregnant,
THEY ARE THE ONES WHO HAVE TO STOP SCHOOLING.
and you fuckers?
you can carry on with your lives as per normal.
and you feel that shagging a girl and making her pregnant is something awesome?
YOU DISGUSTING FUCKING MAGGOTS.
and how dare you start with that petition?
after suffering for 9 whole months,
the only thing you fuckers can compensate us is probably to pay for the child's expenses.
is that too much to ask for?
if the government ever approve such nonsense,
the world will turn into chaos.
girls should start this petition.
MOTHERS HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHOOSE IF THEY WANT TO KEEP THE CHILD AFTER GIVING BIRTH. THE FATHERS SHALL NOT BE GIVEN A SAY.
isn't this better?
-
and also,
i think rapers should be castrated before being sent to life imprisonment.
and they should be locked in cells with muscular and burly cellmates.
probably those who robbed.
robbers have to be physically fit right?
otherwise how can they run from the police?
okay.
castrated rapers should be locked into cells that consists of gangsters and robbers.
that's better.
you shall see what those people do to you faggots.
-
and then, you have people who are greedy for money.
i mean,
who doesn't enjoy having more money to spend?
if i were to be a thousand dollars richer,
i would be damn happy.
BUT,
it's not okay if you are a compulsive gambler.
to the extent that your family suffers with you.
stop imagining that you will get rich overnight by gambling.
there is a reason for gambling booths to be surviving.
it simply means that the odds of you striking a fortune is very low.
get it?
stop imagining and living in the clouds.
come down back to earth and start living a decent life!
if you are that capable,
then why are you gambling your life away?
why must you drag your family down with you?
taking your daughter's pocket money away from her to gamble?
taking your daughter's piano school fees to gamble?
taking away months of her working pay away to gamble?
and always promising that you will return.
but did you?
you only took more.
what nonsense is this?
you jolly well know that your daughter is a softhearted person.
and hence,
she doesn't wish to reject you.
but it doesn't mean that you can continue doing it, right?
when will you stop this and start resuming your responsibility as a parent?
other parents provide their child with material needs or wants.
your daughter has to provide herself with material needs okay.
not even talking about material wants.
and that's why a part time job is needed.
and then,
you just come and take away everything from her,
promising that you'll return over the weekends.
but did that day ever come?
NO.
other children ask their parents for the latest gadgets.
whatever ipod, itouch, iphone, psp, xbox, and whatever.
your daughter has to save her money and pay part of her own laptop to reduce the burden of her mother.
JUST BECAUSE YOUR GAMBLING HABITS MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE FAMILY.
what nonsense is this?
ROAR.
-
-
I AM SO ANGRY NOW THAT I CAN EAT A LION.
why are humans greedy by nature?
why can't we all be satisfied with what we have?
it's so disgusting.
you have people who are power hungry.
greed for more power and control over certain things.
i don't get it.
what's with getting all the power and controlling something?
don't be dumb.
it just means added responsibilities.
hello?
life is tiring enough.
why are you looking for trouble for yourself?
it's okay to aspire to be a leader.
it's not okay to backstab people and push people down,
just to get yourself up.
disgusting.
-
and then you have people who are extreme attention seekers.
what do you need so much attention for?
so that more people can criticise you?
the more you try to get attention,
the more disgusted and amused people are.
what's wrong with leading an ordinary life?
with loving families, friends, and a partner.
why isn't that enough?
continue doing what you're doing.
you can just simply see the amount of hatred people have for you escalating.
-
next, overwhelmed by your own sexual needs and desires.
hello?
you need to fuck someone so much?
go and get a whore.
don't target young and innocent victims.
are you too broke to spend $50 on a prostitute?
if yes,
then just keep your fucking dick zipped inside your pants.
DO NOT LET IT OUT, DAMN IT.
ever so often,
we have cases of young girls getting raped or molested on their way home.
we have cases of girls getting molested during countdowns or events.
and you fuckers don't even let us off when we take public transport.
seriously,
just because we are young,
it doesn't mean that we are an easy target.
i have plenty of encounters with such assholes.
molesters, flashers.
i slapped a guy on the bus before.
i smacked a guy's hand on the train before.
i stepped on a guy's foot before.
a flasher followed me to my doorstep before.
a guy squeezed my butt in the swimming pool when i was young.
a classmate jumped onto me and hugged me in primary school.
and some others,
which i can't recall now.
you see!
why can't these horny bastards just keep themselves at home and watch porn?
pornography is so easily accessible now.
stop ruining the lives of our young ones in the society you faggots.
you destroy their lives,
you make them feel unworthy,
people look down on them,
and you SCAR them for life okay.
stupid assholes.
-
and the second kind,
boyfriends who take girls as sex slaves or toys.
it is OKAY, if you treat the girl well and you really love her.
it is NOT OKAY if you lie to the girl about how much you love her,
just for fucking's sake,
and then abandon her when you are done.
i admit,
sometimes we girls are too dumb,
because we get blinded over sweet talks easily.
BECAUSE WE TRUST THAT YOU REALLY LOVE US.
so bastards out there,
just STOP taking advantage of this weakness we have.
it's just simply disgusting.
and you know what?
i recently found out that guys in US are having a petition,
which is,
TO BE GIVEN A CHOICE OF WHETHER THEY SHOULD TAKE RESPONSIBILITY OF THE CHILD THAT THEY FATHERED.
omg.
what on earth is this?
hey,
when you guys put your fucking sperm inside us,
we are the ones who have to suffer okay.
suffer with the bloody symptoms,
the morning sickness,
the nauseous feelings.
we are the ones who have to bear with our body ballooning up into some enormous freak.
WE ARE THE ONES WHO HAVE TO AVOID CERTAIN KINDS OF FOOD OKAY.
we are also the poor ones who will be accused of not practising self love,
and we are the ones who will be mocked at by others.
for those young girls who are pregnant,
THEY ARE THE ONES WHO HAVE TO STOP SCHOOLING.
and you fuckers?
you can carry on with your lives as per normal.
and you feel that shagging a girl and making her pregnant is something awesome?
YOU DISGUSTING FUCKING MAGGOTS.
and how dare you start with that petition?
after suffering for 9 whole months,
the only thing you fuckers can compensate us is probably to pay for the child's expenses.
is that too much to ask for?
if the government ever approve such nonsense,
the world will turn into chaos.
girls should start this petition.
MOTHERS HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHOOSE IF THEY WANT TO KEEP THE CHILD AFTER GIVING BIRTH. THE FATHERS SHALL NOT BE GIVEN A SAY.
isn't this better?
-
and also,
i think rapers should be castrated before being sent to life imprisonment.
and they should be locked in cells with muscular and burly cellmates.
probably those who robbed.
robbers have to be physically fit right?
otherwise how can they run from the police?
okay.
castrated rapers should be locked into cells that consists of gangsters and robbers.
that's better.
you shall see what those people do to you faggots.
-
and then, you have people who are greedy for money.
i mean,
who doesn't enjoy having more money to spend?
if i were to be a thousand dollars richer,
i would be damn happy.
BUT,
it's not okay if you are a compulsive gambler.
to the extent that your family suffers with you.
stop imagining that you will get rich overnight by gambling.
there is a reason for gambling booths to be surviving.
it simply means that the odds of you striking a fortune is very low.
get it?
stop imagining and living in the clouds.
come down back to earth and start living a decent life!
if you are that capable,
then why are you gambling your life away?
why must you drag your family down with you?
taking your daughter's pocket money away from her to gamble?
taking your daughter's piano school fees to gamble?
taking away months of her working pay away to gamble?
and always promising that you will return.
but did you?
you only took more.
what nonsense is this?
you jolly well know that your daughter is a softhearted person.
and hence,
she doesn't wish to reject you.
but it doesn't mean that you can continue doing it, right?
when will you stop this and start resuming your responsibility as a parent?
other parents provide their child with material needs or wants.
your daughter has to provide herself with material needs okay.
not even talking about material wants.
and that's why a part time job is needed.
and then,
you just come and take away everything from her,
promising that you'll return over the weekends.
but did that day ever come?
NO.
other children ask their parents for the latest gadgets.
whatever ipod, itouch, iphone, psp, xbox, and whatever.
your daughter has to save her money and pay part of her own laptop to reduce the burden of her mother.
JUST BECAUSE YOUR GAMBLING HABITS MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE FAMILY.
what nonsense is this?
ROAR.
-
-
I AM SO ANGRY NOW THAT I CAN EAT A LION.
Friday, February 19, 2010
♥
exam in 12 hours' time.
and i'm not even halfway through!
writing notes like crazy,
baby dee entertaining me online,
and then suddenly,
he's at my doorstep to pass me his jacket.
i'm so bringing it to school tomorrow.
lalala~
he's been surprising me alot lately,
and i'm indescribably happy.
okay,
i can float to the clouds now.
hehehe.
hang on,
i still have exams to study for.
ROAR.
):
back to my slides.
such a spoiler.
writing notes like crazy,
baby dee entertaining me online,
and then suddenly,
he's at my doorstep to pass me his jacket.
i'm so bringing it to school tomorrow.
lalala~
he's been surprising me alot lately,
and i'm indescribably happy.
okay,
i can float to the clouds now.
hehehe.
hang on,
i still have exams to study for.
ROAR.
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back to my slides.
such a spoiler.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
hindrance.
chinese new year,
the typical thing.
reunion dinner,
visiting,
and i thought i saw CS on sunday.
turns out to be,
it really was her!
more visiting,
kay poh cousins pestering for information about dee,
tingy betrayed me and told them about him.
thanks alot sister. -.-
ate the same food over and over again.
i swear,
i had chicken curry for EVERY single meal since saturday.
plus,
my mum cooked a HUGE pot of curry that is supposed to survive us for a few days.
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work yesterday.
new colleagues,
friendly and nice.
baby dee surprised me by picking me up!
he then went to my place to visit,
and then we went out.
had dinner at fig and olives.
caught a movie,
percy jackson and the lightning thief.
was reluctant to, at first.
but the movie was good.
:D
homed.
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today.
dee came over to my place to studyyyyyyyyyyy.
had lunch at coffeshop,
vermicelli again!
study againnnnnnnnnnn.
was not productive for me at all.
but at least he studied!
thanks xinyi dear for sending me notes. (:
went out after that to meet cousin and ryuta.
e!hub.
jap food for dinner.
sushi and ramen, yum.
wanted to go prawning,
but it started to drizzle.
went to the arcade instead.
played till our arms could take it no longer.
and fabulous dee placed his card in the pocket,
and he played the basketball game,
and the card tapped through his pocket.
so we had 8 more tries for the basketball game.
and we all know,
that game can cause temporary arm damage.
we were exhausted by the time we cleared the 8 games.
homed after that.
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i'm so dead.
exam's on friday.
i'm not even done with ONE chapter.
so deaddddddddddd.
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the typical thing.
reunion dinner,
visiting,
and i thought i saw CS on sunday.
turns out to be,
it really was her!
more visiting,
kay poh cousins pestering for information about dee,
tingy betrayed me and told them about him.
thanks alot sister. -.-
ate the same food over and over again.
i swear,
i had chicken curry for EVERY single meal since saturday.
plus,
my mum cooked a HUGE pot of curry that is supposed to survive us for a few days.
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work yesterday.
new colleagues,
friendly and nice.
baby dee surprised me by picking me up!
he then went to my place to visit,
and then we went out.
had dinner at fig and olives.
caught a movie,
percy jackson and the lightning thief.
was reluctant to, at first.
but the movie was good.
:D
homed.
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today.
dee came over to my place to studyyyyyyyyyyy.
had lunch at coffeshop,
vermicelli again!
study againnnnnnnnnnn.
was not productive for me at all.
but at least he studied!
thanks xinyi dear for sending me notes. (:
went out after that to meet cousin and ryuta.
e!hub.
jap food for dinner.
sushi and ramen, yum.
wanted to go prawning,
but it started to drizzle.
went to the arcade instead.
played till our arms could take it no longer.
and fabulous dee placed his card in the pocket,
and he played the basketball game,
and the card tapped through his pocket.
so we had 8 more tries for the basketball game.
and we all know,
that game can cause temporary arm damage.
we were exhausted by the time we cleared the 8 games.
homed after that.
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i'm so dead.
exam's on friday.
i'm not even done with ONE chapter.
so deaddddddddddd.
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whatever luh huh.
do what you want.
i can't be bothered,
anymore.
do what you want.
i can't be bothered,
anymore.
Friday, February 12, 2010
hallelujah chorus!
finally finally finally over and done with projects.
i can almost hear the hallelujah chorus.
seriously,
i owe bobby 10 cartons worth of thanks!
i wouldn't be able to complete the IT assignment if it's not for your help.
thanks bobby,
my brother from another family.
:D
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and so,
met bobby at coffeebean today.
he taught me how to do the basic basic stuff,
and i was so fascinated luh.
i sent him the assignment descriptor yesterday night.
i haven't even looked at it.
and then,
he actually printed it out and highlighted the important parts and analysed the whole thing for me.
i felt so guilty luh.
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and anyway,
he went out to smoke,
and i was trying to figure out the button thingy.
and then,
baby dee plopped and sat beside me.
i got a shock luh.
but nevertheless,
a sweet surprise.
(:
bobby left for school,
i bought cup noodles and shared cheesy hotdog with dee while walking home.
he left for school,
and i followed him to the bus stop.
wanted to buy ingredients for dinner,
and i bumped into tingy!
bought the things,
went home to cook.
fish porridge for my family for dinner.
hehehe.
potential housewife.
:D
i just realised that i didn't eat the cup noodles that i bought for lunch luh.
-.-
and then killed ten thousand brain cells while completing IT,
and tadah~
i'm done.
happy happy happy.
oh yes,
while doing the project just now,
i kept seeing a black moving figure.
i thought i was on the edge of having some severe mental disorder.
or perhaps i was too tired.
that black figure kept appearing while i was typing away.
i took off my glasses,
and then,
the culprit of the black figure was found.
an ant was crawling on my glasses.
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stupid ant.
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to end,
lee xin yi i'm so happy for you! ♥
i can almost hear the hallelujah chorus.
seriously,
i owe bobby 10 cartons worth of thanks!
i wouldn't be able to complete the IT assignment if it's not for your help.
thanks bobby,
my brother from another family.
:D
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and so,
met bobby at coffeebean today.
he taught me how to do the basic basic stuff,
and i was so fascinated luh.
i sent him the assignment descriptor yesterday night.
i haven't even looked at it.
and then,
he actually printed it out and highlighted the important parts and analysed the whole thing for me.
i felt so guilty luh.
):
and anyway,
he went out to smoke,
and i was trying to figure out the button thingy.
and then,
baby dee plopped and sat beside me.
i got a shock luh.
but nevertheless,
a sweet surprise.
(:
bobby left for school,
i bought cup noodles and shared cheesy hotdog with dee while walking home.
he left for school,
and i followed him to the bus stop.
wanted to buy ingredients for dinner,
and i bumped into tingy!
bought the things,
went home to cook.
fish porridge for my family for dinner.
hehehe.
potential housewife.
:D
i just realised that i didn't eat the cup noodles that i bought for lunch luh.
-.-
and then killed ten thousand brain cells while completing IT,
and tadah~
i'm done.
happy happy happy.
oh yes,
while doing the project just now,
i kept seeing a black moving figure.
i thought i was on the edge of having some severe mental disorder.
or perhaps i was too tired.
that black figure kept appearing while i was typing away.
i took off my glasses,
and then,
the culprit of the black figure was found.
an ant was crawling on my glasses.
-.-
stupid ant.
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to end,
lee xin yi i'm so happy for you! ♥
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
pineapple tarts
brief update.
my mum says i look like a kid here.
tiffany laopo got a shock too.
hahaha.
hahaha.
he stuffed jelly into his mouth.
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okay,
chinese new year is coming.
totally not looking forward to it.
mum made pineapple tarts for our relatives on sunday.
tingy and i helped out.
mum did the dough,
tingy and i rolled the pineapple paste into balls.
we were so sick and tired of it that we started laughing and having dumb conversations.
tingy : Jie, it's quite dumb to have to say happy new year to everyone at granny's house right? i mean, we have to keep shaking everyone's hands and repeating the same words right?
me: *rolling the pineapple paste* uh huh, why?
tingy : i think we should just bring a loudspeaker and announce 'happy new year' once and for all. save time and effort.
me : *stop rolling and burst out laughing*
tingy : *stop rolling and burst out laughing too*
me : like that then imagine if everybody bring loudspeaker, wah, chaos leh.
tingy : *laugh even louder.*
mum : oie! the 2 of you, better concentrate on your pineapples hor!
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me : talking rubbish and laughing like a lunatic.
tingy : crazy girl.
me: tingy, i think i woke up from the wrong side of my bed today.
tingy : yea, wrong side plus upside down.
me : laugh even more.
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after rolling for what seemed like years,
i decided to help mum to vacumm and mop the floor.
when the house is squeaky clean,
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me: mummy, you see i so guai (obedient) , you should reward me mann.
mum : hmm. ya what, i reward you mah. i bake one container of pineapple tarts for your BOYFRIEND leh.
me : dumbfounded. mum! that's not rewarding ME what. you're benefiting him, not ME.
mum : aiyah, same lah.
me : -.-
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baking pineapple tarts can be quite rewarding when you have huge entertainment sources.
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monday
PEC lecture.
caught hachiko with baby dee after school.
great movie.
lots of sniffing heard in the theatre.
but not me.
baby dee wanted a dog even more after the movie.
but oh well.
make do with hamsters okay?
(:
he sent me home before going off to climb.
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tuesday.
chn lecture at 9am,
i woke up at 9am.
gave school a miss.
baby accompanied me for lunch during his break.
he went off to school.
tingy came home,
we went off to deliver mum's pineapple tarts to our fellow relatives.
granny's place for dinner after that.
homed.
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today.
was sleeping so soundly when i woke up and picked up a call.
freaky thing is,
my phone was on silent mode,
without the vibration.
but i picked up the call when baby called.
intuition, i guess.
lunch and off to school i went.
IT lesson was disastrous.
all of us were so screwed with the dreamweaver and flash project.
regret skipping classes now.
emm and i were figuring out how to link this and that,
but,
failed miserably.
xinyi and CS were trying to make their animations move.
succeed a little.
oh noooooooooo.
):
dinnered with laopo in school.
went off for frozen yogurt at bugis.
JCO's frozen yogurt, thumbs up!
homed after that.
told mummy what's been bothering me these days.
felt alot better.
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tomorrow.
bobby's gonna meet me,
and save me from the evil clutches of dreamweaver.
yay.
:D
tiffany laopo got a shock too.
hahaha.
hahaha.
he stuffed jelly into his mouth.
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okay,
chinese new year is coming.
totally not looking forward to it.
mum made pineapple tarts for our relatives on sunday.
tingy and i helped out.
mum did the dough,
tingy and i rolled the pineapple paste into balls.
we were so sick and tired of it that we started laughing and having dumb conversations.
tingy : Jie, it's quite dumb to have to say happy new year to everyone at granny's house right? i mean, we have to keep shaking everyone's hands and repeating the same words right?
me: *rolling the pineapple paste* uh huh, why?
tingy : i think we should just bring a loudspeaker and announce 'happy new year' once and for all. save time and effort.
me : *stop rolling and burst out laughing*
tingy : *stop rolling and burst out laughing too*
me : like that then imagine if everybody bring loudspeaker, wah, chaos leh.
tingy : *laugh even louder.*
mum : oie! the 2 of you, better concentrate on your pineapples hor!
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me : talking rubbish and laughing like a lunatic.
tingy : crazy girl.
me: tingy, i think i woke up from the wrong side of my bed today.
tingy : yea, wrong side plus upside down.
me : laugh even more.
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after rolling for what seemed like years,
i decided to help mum to vacumm and mop the floor.
when the house is squeaky clean,
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me: mummy, you see i so guai (obedient) , you should reward me mann.
mum : hmm. ya what, i reward you mah. i bake one container of pineapple tarts for your BOYFRIEND leh.
me : dumbfounded. mum! that's not rewarding ME what. you're benefiting him, not ME.
mum : aiyah, same lah.
me : -.-
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as you can see,
baking pineapple tarts can be quite rewarding when you have huge entertainment sources.
:D
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monday
PEC lecture.
caught hachiko with baby dee after school.
great movie.
lots of sniffing heard in the theatre.
but not me.
baby dee wanted a dog even more after the movie.
but oh well.
make do with hamsters okay?
(:
he sent me home before going off to climb.
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tuesday.
chn lecture at 9am,
i woke up at 9am.
gave school a miss.
baby accompanied me for lunch during his break.
he went off to school.
tingy came home,
we went off to deliver mum's pineapple tarts to our fellow relatives.
granny's place for dinner after that.
homed.
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today.
was sleeping so soundly when i woke up and picked up a call.
freaky thing is,
my phone was on silent mode,
without the vibration.
but i picked up the call when baby called.
intuition, i guess.
lunch and off to school i went.
IT lesson was disastrous.
all of us were so screwed with the dreamweaver and flash project.
regret skipping classes now.
emm and i were figuring out how to link this and that,
but,
failed miserably.
xinyi and CS were trying to make their animations move.
succeed a little.
oh noooooooooo.
):
dinnered with laopo in school.
went off for frozen yogurt at bugis.
JCO's frozen yogurt, thumbs up!
homed after that.
told mummy what's been bothering me these days.
felt alot better.
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tomorrow.
bobby's gonna meet me,
and save me from the evil clutches of dreamweaver.
yay.
:D
Saturday, February 6, 2010
math corner!
did my math corner in the centre!
drew cupcakes and candies and whatevernots.
thanks tingie and baby dee for helping me with the cutting!
drew cupcakes and candies and whatevernots.
thanks tingie and baby dee for helping me with the cutting!
p.s
i drew it,
not photocopied!
everyone who saw it thought it was photocopied.
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this little boy tried to block my view while taking the picture!
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fabulous ellene uploaded our sec 2 pictures on facebook........
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fabulous ellene uploaded our sec 2 pictures on facebook........
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DNT teacher was demonstrating how to do the twinkle twinkle punishment.
i had to do it because i didn't bring my workbook.
we had to do 100 or 200 of it i think.
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seriously la.
like small kid sia!
omg.
how did i ever grow from that.
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going off to vivo for shopping with mum and sis now!
and before i leave,
omg.
baby please don't kill me.
:D
i know you won't.
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my boyfriend, sec 2!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Animal picture book
my animal picture book!
okay,
it's supposed to pop out.
but somehow,
failed miserably.
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brief update.
wednesday.
attachment,
this little girl kept sticking to me throughout the day.
she wasn't from my class,
so she kept following me everywhere i go.
she waited for me outside the toilet while i was inside.
cute or what?
then she started crying and i carried her,
and she conveniently drooled on my hair.
omg.
suicidal thoughts please.
KE,
dinner at cheers,
and cabbed home with cousin and fryderyk.
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thursday
i can't remember what happened.
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friday
work till closing.
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saturday
did opening till 4pm.
homed,
prepared,
and met up with sec school mates.
vernon and ivan going NS soon.
hahaha.
caught up with each other during dinner,
movie,
went to drink.
the guys spilled their love-sorrows out.
kinda entertaining.
dee kept 'encouraging' me to drink.
ended up quite high after that.
homed near 4am.
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sunday.
woke up with a buzzing headache.
but it didn't stay too long.
lunch with tingy,
homed and did my learning corner activities.
nearly went mad.
thank goodness for tingy and dee's help.
otherwise i wouldn't be able to complete.
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today.
attachment,
did my corner and conducted my lesson.
the little girl followed me everywhere i went again.
this time,
my mentor had to drag her out of the classroom because she refused to leave me,
and i needed to implement my lesson.
felt so sorry for her,
but,
oh well.
i'm going to school now.
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reluctant to the max.
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Tuesday, January 26, 2010
seriously, fuck it.
seriously right,
life sucks.
life sucks because school sucks.
seriously luh.
Monday,
the first lesson,
the damn lecturer was being so fucked up.
i mean,
i agree that our work isn't as great as the other groups lah.
so?
you can't just simply pick on us and vent your anger k.
this stupid lecturer made it sound like we totally didn't put in ANY effort to do the damn thing.
oh please.
if we didn't,
we wouldn't even be able to stand in front of the class to present okay.
god damn it,
we even wore nicer clothes because of the presentation!
(i mean, partly because it's runway day for us)
BUT STILL,
we bothered to dress up.
so what if we're reading from the slides?
i DID elaborate on my parts okay.
i gave examples and explained.
i don't see why she has the reason to say such things about us.
just bloody say so if you don't like us.
just SAY IT.
and what?
we put you off because we're the first group to present and we're late?
for god's sake.
we have lots of classmates who came even later than us.
and obviously you wouldn't want us to start without the others in the class right?
please.
it's a monday,
there is bound to be traffic jams okay.
you're blaming us for what others did?
fuck off seriously.
to us, you said:
"so what if you show me statistics?"
to the others who did not put statistics, you said:
"it would be good if you include statistics"
see the fucking difference?
damn it.
AND,
you people as lecturers,
taught us not to humiliate children if they did something wrong.
and never ever scold them in front of their peers.
then what the hell were you doing?
you made us stand there in front of the class for 10 fucking minutes just to pick on our faults?
do you think you really deserve to be a lecturer?
you are not even practicing what you preach.
what is this mann?
WHY?
because they fucking think that we don't give a damn about school.
it's not that.
it's just that we don't put in the EXTRA effort that others did.
we're just being NORMAL.
not EXTRAORDINARY.
get it?
and what's wrong with that?
we're not fighting for the places in the director's list you know.
we don't wanna possess any source of threat to the others.
shouldn't you lecturers be happy about not having extra work to do?
seriously just fuck off.
my hatred for school is escalating.
no wait,
it's sky high already!
ARGH.
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on a happier note,
i sort of completed my picture book.
another assignment down.
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gave school a miss today.
wasn't feeling too well.
went to swim in the evening and baby met me at the entrance of the swimming complex.
had dinner,
he was feeling fucked up too.
sweetheart,
cheer up.
life sucks.
life sucks because school sucks.
seriously luh.
Monday,
the first lesson,
the damn lecturer was being so fucked up.
i mean,
i agree that our work isn't as great as the other groups lah.
so?
you can't just simply pick on us and vent your anger k.
this stupid lecturer made it sound like we totally didn't put in ANY effort to do the damn thing.
oh please.
if we didn't,
we wouldn't even be able to stand in front of the class to present okay.
god damn it,
we even wore nicer clothes because of the presentation!
(i mean, partly because it's runway day for us)
BUT STILL,
we bothered to dress up.
so what if we're reading from the slides?
i DID elaborate on my parts okay.
i gave examples and explained.
i don't see why she has the reason to say such things about us.
just bloody say so if you don't like us.
just SAY IT.
and what?
we put you off because we're the first group to present and we're late?
for god's sake.
we have lots of classmates who came even later than us.
and obviously you wouldn't want us to start without the others in the class right?
please.
it's a monday,
there is bound to be traffic jams okay.
you're blaming us for what others did?
fuck off seriously.
to us, you said:
"so what if you show me statistics?"
to the others who did not put statistics, you said:
"it would be good if you include statistics"
see the fucking difference?
damn it.
AND,
you people as lecturers,
taught us not to humiliate children if they did something wrong.
and never ever scold them in front of their peers.
then what the hell were you doing?
you made us stand there in front of the class for 10 fucking minutes just to pick on our faults?
do you think you really deserve to be a lecturer?
you are not even practicing what you preach.
what is this mann?
WHY?
because they fucking think that we don't give a damn about school.
it's not that.
it's just that we don't put in the EXTRA effort that others did.
we're just being NORMAL.
not EXTRAORDINARY.
get it?
and what's wrong with that?
we're not fighting for the places in the director's list you know.
we don't wanna possess any source of threat to the others.
shouldn't you lecturers be happy about not having extra work to do?
seriously just fuck off.
my hatred for school is escalating.
no wait,
it's sky high already!
ARGH.
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on a happier note,
i sort of completed my picture book.
another assignment down.
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gave school a miss today.
wasn't feeling too well.
went to swim in the evening and baby met me at the entrance of the swimming complex.
had dinner,
he was feeling fucked up too.
sweetheart,
cheer up.
picture taken 2 nights ago.
he claimed that he wanted to kiss me.
but it's not true.
he just doesn't want to take a picture.
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he claimed that he wanted to kiss me.
but it's not true.
he just doesn't want to take a picture.
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runway day,
xinyi and i.
we wore this for presentation.
please bear with my messy post.
the whole sequence is wrong and i seriously can't be bothered to do anything about it.
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OH NO.
i'm going insane.
how i wish i have a drumset with me.
i will whack with all my might and make a din.
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and omg,
my guitar string snapped.
ARGH.
cousin,
please fix it for me!
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i feel like practising beethoven's pathetique sonata now.
i want my arm to ache so badly that i will stop due to exhaustion.
i feel like banging my piano now.
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i feel like drinking to get drunk.
i feel like smoking to calm down
i feel like clubbing to get high.
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but all of the above,
can't be done NOW.
oh my,
life sucks.
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attachment tmr.
i hope my voice is so hoarse that i can't talk to the kids.
which means that i don't have to entertain them.
and it means that i do not have to implement my lesson.
thumbs up for that thought!
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okay.
i need to go back to my assignments now.
enough of ranting for the moment.
i hope i have better things to blog about tmr!
xinyi and i.
we wore this for presentation.
please bear with my messy post.
the whole sequence is wrong and i seriously can't be bothered to do anything about it.
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OH NO.
i'm going insane.
how i wish i have a drumset with me.
i will whack with all my might and make a din.
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and omg,
my guitar string snapped.
ARGH.
cousin,
please fix it for me!
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i feel like practising beethoven's pathetique sonata now.
i want my arm to ache so badly that i will stop due to exhaustion.
i feel like banging my piano now.
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i feel like drinking to get drunk.
i feel like smoking to calm down
i feel like clubbing to get high.
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but all of the above,
can't be done NOW.
oh my,
life sucks.
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attachment tmr.
i hope my voice is so hoarse that i can't talk to the kids.
which means that i don't have to entertain them.
and it means that i do not have to implement my lesson.
thumbs up for that thought!
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okay.
i need to go back to my assignments now.
enough of ranting for the moment.
i hope i have better things to blog about tmr!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
borrow, return, take double.
this is going to be an unpleasant post.
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seriously wtf la.
you as an adult,
you should know your bloody responsibilities.
it's alright if you don't contribute.
just don't be such a scumbag.
i've said it before,
i love you,
but i don't bloody respect you.
your presence caused us heaps of inconvenience.
but we can't do anything about it.
i don't hate you.
i can't do it.
so stop taking advantage of that fact to get your way around.
i can't be like tingy.
i can't do what she did.
never before in my life have i seen her behaving the way she did today.
don't you think it's a cause for concern?
the way she ignored you,
the face she displayed throughout.
doesn't it ring a bell?
shouldn't you just start reflecting on what you're doing?
why is your skin so thick?
and why can't i inherite your genes of being thick skinned?
so that i can counter your thick skin-ness.
why oh why must i have mum's genes of being soft hearted?
why, damn it.
why?
i can't even eat a damn meal in peace.
imagine that.
tingy and i can't even go down to coffeeshop and eat together.
imagine that.
seriously what kind of nonsense is this.
mummy is no longer your wife.
you shouldn't even be staying with us.
i hate it when people come and tell me how bloody fortunate i am to be staying with my parents.
fuck off okay.
it's totally not that way.
you people just don't understand.
so stop pretending and acting like you do.
and stop saying that we, as children, should not be affected over adult's problems.
just shut the fuck up.
so what if you're my auntys or uncles and you're trying to be encouraging?
fuck off.
you're totally not helping at all.
you don't even know what's happening.
you don't even know what's that pest doing to tingy and i.
even my mum doesn't know.
so seriously,
keep your comments to yourself.
because you only make me so horribly mad that i wanna rip your skin off your face.
it's really a disgrace to even talk about this.
i find it hard to even confide in my closest friends.
it's too embarrassing to even tell anyone about it in detail.
bottling this up is killing me.
i really feel miserable.
to think that i have to learn how to handle different kinds of family situations on my own.
screw it.
i can't even help myself.
the school should teach us how to help ourselves first.
or perhaps,
to qualify as an early childhood educator,
you need to have a good family background.
it's true.
otherwise kids will just suffer.
i wanted to talk to someone so badly just now.
but now,
i don't even feel like talking to anyone.
because,
nobody is ever going to understand.
friends around can only encourage.
they can only give advice.
but in the end,
it's not easy to even carry out the advices.
i hope tingy is awake now.
because if she is,
she'll be the best person to console me now.
i doubt she'll even cry with me.
today's incident made me realise that she's no longer that small little sister i always thought she was.
i'm wrong.
she's all grown up now.
she's even tougher than me in terms of emotions.
to all who even bother to read this,
please, for goodness sake.
don't jump into conclusions.
don't give any redundant comments either.
and most importantly,
don't even try to act like you understand and know what's happening when you don't.
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seriously wtf la.
you as an adult,
you should know your bloody responsibilities.
it's alright if you don't contribute.
just don't be such a scumbag.
i've said it before,
i love you,
but i don't bloody respect you.
your presence caused us heaps of inconvenience.
but we can't do anything about it.
i don't hate you.
i can't do it.
so stop taking advantage of that fact to get your way around.
i can't be like tingy.
i can't do what she did.
never before in my life have i seen her behaving the way she did today.
don't you think it's a cause for concern?
the way she ignored you,
the face she displayed throughout.
doesn't it ring a bell?
shouldn't you just start reflecting on what you're doing?
why is your skin so thick?
and why can't i inherite your genes of being thick skinned?
so that i can counter your thick skin-ness.
why oh why must i have mum's genes of being soft hearted?
why, damn it.
why?
i can't even eat a damn meal in peace.
imagine that.
tingy and i can't even go down to coffeeshop and eat together.
imagine that.
seriously what kind of nonsense is this.
mummy is no longer your wife.
you shouldn't even be staying with us.
i hate it when people come and tell me how bloody fortunate i am to be staying with my parents.
fuck off okay.
it's totally not that way.
you people just don't understand.
so stop pretending and acting like you do.
and stop saying that we, as children, should not be affected over adult's problems.
just shut the fuck up.
so what if you're my auntys or uncles and you're trying to be encouraging?
fuck off.
you're totally not helping at all.
you don't even know what's happening.
you don't even know what's that pest doing to tingy and i.
even my mum doesn't know.
so seriously,
keep your comments to yourself.
because you only make me so horribly mad that i wanna rip your skin off your face.
it's really a disgrace to even talk about this.
i find it hard to even confide in my closest friends.
it's too embarrassing to even tell anyone about it in detail.
bottling this up is killing me.
i really feel miserable.
to think that i have to learn how to handle different kinds of family situations on my own.
screw it.
i can't even help myself.
the school should teach us how to help ourselves first.
or perhaps,
to qualify as an early childhood educator,
you need to have a good family background.
it's true.
otherwise kids will just suffer.
i wanted to talk to someone so badly just now.
but now,
i don't even feel like talking to anyone.
because,
nobody is ever going to understand.
friends around can only encourage.
they can only give advice.
but in the end,
it's not easy to even carry out the advices.
i hope tingy is awake now.
because if she is,
she'll be the best person to console me now.
i doubt she'll even cry with me.
today's incident made me realise that she's no longer that small little sister i always thought she was.
i'm wrong.
she's all grown up now.
she's even tougher than me in terms of emotions.
to all who even bother to read this,
please, for goodness sake.
don't jump into conclusions.
don't give any redundant comments either.
and most importantly,
don't even try to act like you understand and know what's happening when you don't.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
fellow ostriches
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and so,
the weekends are FINALLY here.
thank goodness work's out for me this weekend.
have lots of school work to catch up!
i shall start on the animal picture book later.
i shall,
i must,
and i will.
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school has been so much better with these girls.
which also means,
my fellow ostriches.
emm, me, xinyi, cs
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they are friends who really made school a whole lot better for me.
(:
we're gonna wear the clothes that we bought online on monday!
AND,
there will be no more tutorials on friday.
which means,
no more classes for me on thurs and fri!
hahahahahahaha.
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really looking forward for the holidays.
1. pending genting trip with CS and emm and hopefully xinyi.
2. butter factory with CS
3. powerhouse with laopo.
4. dee promised to club with me.
5.club with coussie charmaine.
6. work with tanjinmay, hopefully. :D
7. meet up with adeline neo!
8. bring adeline neo to club after 29th march.
9. KE outing/ chalet.
10.hunt for a cake for beryl low wei ting.
11. wild wild wet weekly routine with dee?
12. miss u cafe for post-valentines celebration!
13. meet up with sec school friends before vernon and ivan goes botak!
14. stayovers again?
15. and the list goes on.
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oh yes.
coussie and i are up to something exciting tomorrow.
can't wait can't wait!
:D
will blog about it if it's successful.
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and,
today is the 23rd.
which means,
it's our 51th month anniversary.
which also means 4 years and 3 months.
yes cousin,
don't get a shock.
it's true.
:D
and anyway,
we were listening to bad romance by lady gaga.
because i'm obsessed with that song.
and,
i forced him to listen to it with me.
and he finally got so extremely irritated,
he switched it to the radio.
and guess what song came out?
BAD ROMANCE.
:D
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i'm in an extremely positive mood today.
lalala~
we were listening to bad romance by lady gaga.
because i'm obsessed with that song.
and,
i forced him to listen to it with me.
and he finally got so extremely irritated,
he switched it to the radio.
and guess what song came out?
BAD ROMANCE.
:D
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i'm in an extremely positive mood today.
lalala~
Thursday, January 21, 2010
tags
i realised that i have a very bad habit of forgetting to reply tags.
tingy: love you la okay!
tiffany : you're the best laopo ever. (:
jin may : okay! meet up soon please! ):
xueryl : yup!
fang : http://myrunwaylabel.livejournal.com/10287.html#cutid1
this is the blogshop. quite dumb.
because if you buy one piece, it's around 20 bucks.
if you buy 5,
it's 10 bucks each.
so may as well buy 5 right? (:
aloy: different what. you super zai. that's why got aura!
i don't have any rights to have 'aura' la please! :D
tingy: love you la okay!
tiffany : you're the best laopo ever. (:
jin may : okay! meet up soon please! ):
xueryl : yup!
fang : http://myrunwaylabel.livejournal.com/10287.html#cutid1
this is the blogshop. quite dumb.
because if you buy one piece, it's around 20 bucks.
if you buy 5,
it's 10 bucks each.
so may as well buy 5 right? (:
aloy: different what. you super zai. that's why got aura!
i don't have any rights to have 'aura' la please! :D
another week
projects and assignments are such a handful.
this is what i've done for PEC's brochure.
heh.
this is what i've done for PEC's brochure.
heh.
combined tux paint, with paint, and photoshop.
took me an hour.
but,
i like it.
:D
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and so,
i had work on sunday.
did opening at iluma.
oh yes.
there's this flavour,
called kahlua.
it's coffee liquor actually.
and when i tried it,
i swear,
i was in agony.
it tastes like,
okay.
nevermind.
i shall not describe.
but as far as i know,
nobody in berrylite likes it.
hahaha.
some of the customers requested to try it.
and they will display their oh-so-classic-face.
and we have to suppress our laughter when we look at their faces.
and anyway,
i met an extremely fucked up customer.
she bought a few cups of yogurt and only one of it has topping.
so we only gave her one stamp for the card.
and then she come and make noise and say that it's ridiculous and blah blah blah.
and she THREW THE CARD BACK AT ME.
i was stunned can.
felt like throwing it back to her.
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Monday
school as usual.
lessons as usual.
the highlight of the day was when we shopped online.
initially,
CS and i wanted to get 5 tops/dresses so that it's cheaper.
and then,
she realised that if you purchase 10 tops/dresses,
there will be free registered mail.
so we tried to psycho xinyi and emm to get another 5 tops.
heh.
so all in all,
xinyi bought 4,
cs bought 3,
i bought 2,
and emm bought 1.
total : 10
means,
free registered mail.
heh.
KE as usual.
frozen yogurt with laopo and fryderyk at tamp one.
homed after that.
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Tuesday
school as usual,
lessons as usual,
waste time in class playing games as usual,
finished up brochure during break.
homed after that.
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Wednesday
had attachment,
reached the centre at 9.30am.
super late i know.
baby accompanied me for lunch after that.
went home to change,
he sent me to the MRT station to take train to school.
IT lesson,
late for lesson.
but who cares.
KE after that.
dinner with winson and laopo.
winson was such a gentleman.
took the last 151,
and changed to the last bus 5,
and changed to the last 21 home.
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Today.
baby dee woke me up as usual.
he went off to school after that.
i was craving for mac spicy.
went out to buy.
couldn't finish it as it was too spicy for me.
now,
my throat hurts even more than it initially was.
EA essay to be completed.
argh.
hate school.
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and CS told us that our clothes that we ordered on monday has arrived.
yayness.
:D
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
laopo (:
i'm currently rotting away in IT class doing adobe flash.
it's damn boring,
partly because i've got no idea how to do the exercises.
and dear laopo bought chocolate oreo and delivered it to class for me.
LOVE LAOPO MANY MANY.
<3>
it's damn boring,
partly because i've got no idea how to do the exercises.
and dear laopo bought chocolate oreo and delivered it to class for me.
LOVE LAOPO MANY MANY.
<3>
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
moody monday
i'm feeling really really down now.
like extremely down.
sometimes life just gets too exhausting.
every single moment of the day drags on.
and to top it off,
it's only the start of the week.
school is hectic.
cca is a bother.
family is a wreckage.
though certain parts of my day is brightened up,
life still sucks.
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and,
i've just experienced the true meaning of somebody being a two headed snake.
she appears to be all nice and sweet.
but in actual fact,
she scares me quite a bit.
she scolded someone,
for an issue related to me,
and immediately after scolding that person,
she replied my sms in a happy tone.
tsk.
scary isn't it?
it's instant,
i swear.
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and,
i'm really shocked to know that my club members are terrified of me.
really appalled when i heard about it.
i don't see what's so scary about me.
i often go hopping and jumping and singing around like some mad women.
no doubt,
when it comes to serious business,
i do make sure i get things done the way it's suppose to be.
but to hear of people being really terrified of me,
i didn't see it coming my way.
someone told me that i have an aura around me in KE.
and that makes my members shield themselves from me in defence.
i mean,
like duh?
i'm the president.
if i don't do it,
who will?
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i've never wanted to be the president.
all i wanted,
is to be a member,
and to fulfil my duties within the club.
i didn't ask for the post.
i had to take it,
without a choice.
did i change because of that?
i'm definitely not aware of it.
i felt so lousy.
really really lousy.
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i told baby dee that i'm feeling down.
he waited for me at the void deck of my house after his dinner.
and i told him what's bothering me.
he assured me that everything's okay.
laopo told me that too.
and i can,
only wish for the better.
like extremely down.
sometimes life just gets too exhausting.
every single moment of the day drags on.
and to top it off,
it's only the start of the week.
school is hectic.
cca is a bother.
family is a wreckage.
though certain parts of my day is brightened up,
life still sucks.
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and,
i've just experienced the true meaning of somebody being a two headed snake.
she appears to be all nice and sweet.
but in actual fact,
she scares me quite a bit.
she scolded someone,
for an issue related to me,
and immediately after scolding that person,
she replied my sms in a happy tone.
tsk.
scary isn't it?
it's instant,
i swear.
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and,
i'm really shocked to know that my club members are terrified of me.
really appalled when i heard about it.
i don't see what's so scary about me.
i often go hopping and jumping and singing around like some mad women.
no doubt,
when it comes to serious business,
i do make sure i get things done the way it's suppose to be.
but to hear of people being really terrified of me,
i didn't see it coming my way.
someone told me that i have an aura around me in KE.
and that makes my members shield themselves from me in defence.
i mean,
like duh?
i'm the president.
if i don't do it,
who will?
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i've never wanted to be the president.
all i wanted,
is to be a member,
and to fulfil my duties within the club.
i didn't ask for the post.
i had to take it,
without a choice.
did i change because of that?
i'm definitely not aware of it.
i felt so lousy.
really really lousy.
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i told baby dee that i'm feeling down.
he waited for me at the void deck of my house after his dinner.
and i told him what's bothering me.
he assured me that everything's okay.
laopo told me that too.
and i can,
only wish for the better.
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