hi all, i've moved.
http://honey-coated-love.blogspot.com/
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link or not to link,
visit or not to vist,
it's up to you!

empty promises are as good as lies.

tags replies.
tingy: there you go, your thank you post.
adeline: i prefer calling it kiap kiap!
passerby: thanks!
tiffany: of course la. laopo mah. (:
xue: yea she told me so too. and, unless you have a guilty conscience, otherwise you wouldn't think that way. replied you over sms alr.
adeline: of course la. you're one of my dearest. (:
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work at iluma.
did opening alone.
was damn blur today.
i forgot to switch on the lights,
i forgot to close the machine cover,
i imagined that there are more knifes in the shop,
i keep forgetting what i wanted to do.
germaine caught my mistakes and she kept laughing.
she was so proud of her smoothies.
you should see her classic reactions when there is a smoothie order.
her eyes literally light up.
hahahaha.
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ended work and accompanied Germaine for her break.
had yogurt while she ate her home packed food.
homed after that.
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it's an extremely heart wrenching day today.
you failed to keep your promise.
you didn't even manage to carry it out in the first place.
i'm sick and tired of all these.
i'm so disappointed in you.
what happened to the trust that we built up over the years?
it's all gone now.
your friends matter more than building up the trust i have for you.
they matter more to you than keeping your promise to me.
i'm not angry, i'm just upset.
being upset and disappoint is worse than being angry.
at least,
anger allows you to vent it on things.
but being upset and disappointed doesn't go away that easily.
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our relationship is just like a ladder.
a shaky ladder, to be exact.
the first few steps are uncertain,
and hence, you exercise caution while being on it.
as you climb higher,
your confidence build up.
and when the ladder finally gives way,
you fall further down.
that's how i'm feeling now.

hypocrites

before i start with my post,
i want to thank beryl low wei ting for being such an awesome sister.
though she's extremely annoying sometimes,
but she's always there for me,
listening to my sorrows and heartaches.
love you tingy dear.
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just came back after watching Breakout with baby dee at esplanade.
thumbs up for the show.
can't wait to go for the next one. (:
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work at Woodlands Ring Secondary school yesterday.
sold chocolates with aunty again.
sales was so good that we sold out for most of the items.
record breaking sales ever.
aunty gave me ritter sport chocolate, gummy bears, and 2 boxes of chocolates.
she was really nice and funny la.
she asked me if i smelt something nice,
and i didn't smell anything.
after awhile she realised that it was my perfume.
and then she asked:
aunty: you used perfume is it?
me: yup, why?
aunty: very nice leh. what brand ah?
me: DKNY. it's the green apple be-delicious one.
aunty: Ohh. expensive?
me: quite. i couldn't bear to buy it despite wanting it so much. and my best friend bought it for me for christmas last year.
aunty: WAH YOUR FRIEND SO GOOD. YOUNGSTERS THESE DAYS VERY GOOD TO EACH OTHER AH.
me: hahaha, she's my laopo mah.
aunty: AIYO, CLOSE UNTIL CAN MARRY EACH OTHER.
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laughed non stop.
hehehe,
thanks laopo for the perfume. (:
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hypocrite: a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold in order to conceal his or her real feelings or motives.
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i mean, it's a fact that everybody practice hipocrisy at some point of time in their lives.
towards certain people, and for certain reasons,
such behaviour is shown.
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in my opinion,
if i dislike somebody and i bitch about that person,
it is unlikely that i will ask that person out to catch up,
or some shopping trip or gathering.
i mean,
i obviously dislike you.
so why should i make myself miserable by spending time with you,
and then getting annoyed by your actions and after that,
i'll bitch about you again.
sadly enough,
most people do that.
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i don't understand why do some people behave like this.
for example,
you bitch to me about this particular person,
and claim that you can't tolerate her nonsense anymore.
and then the next thing i know,
you're blogging about an outing that you've enjoyed so much with that particular person.
posting pictures
and then after that,
you come and bitch to me about things that the person did.
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i mean,
if you really dislike him/her so much,
why bother asking that person out?
or why even bother going out with that person?
if i really dislike somebody,
and that person has successfully made me hate him/her,
i wouldn't even bother going out with him/her.
and it's true.
i made all sorts of excuses to avoid meeting this particular person.
the sight of him/her annoys the hell out of me.
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and then,
i know that another particular person doesn't like me because of something that i did not even do.
fine.
you can carry on maligning.
because in the first place,
you are not even someone that matters to me.
to the extent,
if something tragic happened to you,
i won't even be bothered.
you will get your retribution.
and since you tell others how much you dislike me,
why did you even bother telling me how much you care for me?
and if i needed someone you'll always be there for me?
give me a break you hypocritical bitch.
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another one,
she blogged about things that were obviously referring to me.
and she made use of me for her own selfish desires.
she told me that she regarded me as a very close friend,
someone like a sister.
and yet,
she bitched about me to others,
and obviously in her blog posts.
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what do you call this?
i call this being a two faced bitch.
which also means, a hypocrite!
she claimed that i'm her close friend right?
but my boyfriend matters more to her than me.
in various situations,
she obviously preferred having my boyfriend around than me.
and she'll only ask my boyfriend out, not me.
what rubbish is this, seriously?
i can't stand it.
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i admit,
i, myself, am a hypocrite sometimes.
sometimes we get hypocritical to prevent unwanted situations to happen.
it's something like a white lie.
but when i do bitch about someone,
i definitely don't go and act close to them .
neither will i organise outings with them or initiate contact.
the thought of allowing myself to suffer in their presence just puts me off.
people,
just give me a break.
don't come bitching to me about others,
and then act happy and close to them.
it's just plain disgusting.

sunny island

suntanning with adeline and baby dee.
met up at outram park mrt station before heading down to sentosa.

hehehe.
and i prepared potato salad and mangoes.

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and the sun was BURNING hot.
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adeline emo,
because i'm so far away from her.
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dee drew a tortoise on the sand.
and i thought it was intelligent to add the eyes and the mouth.
both of them laughed at me after that,
because the tortoise is meant to be facing downwards.
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and then we went for some luge thing,
it was horrifying la.
so scary.
washed up after that,
and then we went to eat.
baby dee followed us,
but he left for dinner elsewhere with his flying instructor.
and so,
we had chicken rice.

13 dollars chicken rice per person.
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after dinner,
adeline and i went tiong bahru to kiap.
such a pleasant experience luh!
we met really nice people.
hehehe.
even the arcade aunty who has a "i-go-by-the-book-face" helped us to 'cheat'.

adeline caught a melody stuffed toy for me.
it's super cute you know!
it walks!
AHHHH.
so damn cute.
we went home feeling happy.
baby dee waited for me at the mrt station.
i was damn shocked to see him there la!
showed him the melody,
and he thought it was adorable too.
hehehe.
i love you la adeline. (:
our next date,
31st march!
hehehehe, can't wait!
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oh yes,
my ear piercing.
i googled and it's called the 'snug'.

i want to remove the stud and replace it with a bigger stud.
but it kinda hurts,
so i don't really have the guts to touch it.
i guess i'll just leave it alone for awhile.

Tags

okay, reply tags.
my bad habit again.
charmaine: of course, she's my wife. (: duh. rapers shouldn't even exist la. ROAR.
tingie : love you la. (:
hui hui: no worries. i'm okay. (:
adeline : so fierce for what sia you. ):
amanda : HELLO. i'll link you. (:
xueryl : yup!
tiffany : DUH. he's like super duper cute lah. even YOU agree. AHHHH.
adeline : HEHEHE. LET'S GO KIAP ON TUES! DON'T TELL XQ. :X
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today is going to be a damn boring day.
tingie's going for paramore's concert,
and i'll be trapped at home cos one of us HAS to be at home, always.
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this sucks lah.
hur hur.
i wanna go out.
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stuffed happiness.

seriously,
if i were to set up a shop,
i'll open a kiap kiap shop.
it's extremely profitable luh!
those machines are like money grabbers.
and it's kinda addictive too.
i mean,
who can stop with just one try?
you'll definitely be tempted to carry on playing till you get that damn toy!
and the hello kitty pot i won from kiap kiap with CS and xinyi!

haha.
so cute right?
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and also,
the handphone keychaines that the guy in the shop gave.
i mean,
i attempted to catch it,
but failed after spending 5 bucks.
and he 'dropped' all these inside the box. (:

SO ADORABLE RIGHT OMG.
irresistable lah!
gave it away to CS, xinyi, laopo, tingy, and emm's one is still with me!
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few weeks ago,
i helped my sister to wash her beloved stuffed toy.
it's 11 years old this year.
it came from the macdonalds hello kitty craze.
and she's super attached to him.
his name is xiao di.
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before washing.
extremely grey, dusty, and DISGUSTING.

YUCK.
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after soaking!

a little bit whiter after adding bleach.
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and then,

hang him up to dry!
so adorable.
hahaha.
it's so old that the hair is no longer there anymore.
and he has holes in his pants.
and mummy sewed a button on his shirt because it broke.
so poor thing.
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and of course,
i have my little cutie too.
his name is cookie.
and he's the first present i received from baby dee!
cookie is 5 years old this year.
half a decade old!

*screams!*
he's so cute.

laopo took this picture last year!
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actually,
i have no idea why am i posting this weird post on stuffed toys.
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anyway,
brief update.
life's been quite alright.
revolving around work, stoning at home, and friends.
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went out with ellene that day.
wanted to have dessert buffet at ion orchard, swensens!
had a HARD time looking for the swensens.
it's located at a damn ulu section la.
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it's damn big and empty when we went there.
after touring the dessert section,
we decided to give the buffet a miss,
and eat their normal main course instead.
we felt quite dumb after that because we could have met up at an ordinary swensens that is located near our homes.
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but oh well.
we talked and talked and talked,
and we filled each other up with 2 years worth of updating.
eventually ended up at pasir ris to pierce our ears!
finally had enough courage and motivation to pierce the bone inside my ear.
i like it very much!
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though it hurts alot.
ellene couldn't make up her mind on whether to pierce or not.
judging from the way i said 'OUCH!',
she decided against piercing the bone,
and she had the top of her ear pierced instead.
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roamed around whitesands and bought adorable earrings.
back to tampines and bought her book.
supposed to meet dearest adeline,
cancelled in the end.
but oh well,
suntanning next tues! can't wait!
homed after that.
really had a great day with her!
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thurs
tingy fell sick.
i think i spreaded my sickness to her.
accompanied her to the doctor,
and we had mac breakfast while waiting for her turn.
shhhhh.
mummy doesn't know that i brought her for macdonalds.
was very late by the time she collected her medicine.
flagged a cab and sent her home before going to work at iluma.
mabel came down in the morning and accompanied me for awhile.
she went off for work at parkway.
so funny la she.
the day passed and baby dee came to pick me up from work.
had some little squabbles on our way to school.
but everything turned out alright eventually.
he accompanied me to school to collect tickets for SCC's concert.
had dinner in school,
and he was envying the wide variety of food my school has.
went off to e!hub to catch a movie.
watched that jack neo show,
the one about slimming centres.
don't waste your money on it!
in my opinion, it's bullshit.
homed after that.
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friday.
it was a damn boring day.
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i stoned the whole day away at home.
didn't even bother to eat anything.
met mummy for dinner.
homed,
was on the standby mode to accompany ellene for drinking session because she wasn't feeling too happy. ):
eventually she didn't call me back.
ellene i hope you're okay!
watched tv and did 100 sit ups before sleeping.
i will and i must get my figure back.
i'm so fat now.
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today.
as usual,
stoned the morning away.
met laopo in the evening for dinner and yogurt.
off to school we went for SCC's concert.
and i was going gaga overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.............
laopo you know who la huh.
AHHHHH.
HE'S SO CUTE.
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had ramen ten for dinner and homed after that.
a siberian husky puppy was roaming around while i was walking home.
it's damn cute la!
and it sniffed my feet and followed me a little.
it's owner was following it on a bicycle.
so cute la.
alright.
i'm going off to bed now.
baby's clubbing now!
enjoy life la.
he's celebrating cos he passed his flying test and he's getting his license.
i'm so happy for him.
it's a damn good day.
lalala~

after thoughts.

as an afterthought,
i realised that my previous post was rather silly.
that temporary moment of emotions overwhelmed me.
friends,
of course, lovely ones.
i should have known that i have my lovely friends around me.
after putting a not-so-happy- msn nick,
at least 20 conversation windows popped out.
friends, asking what's wrong.
friends, asking what can they do to help.
and yet i blogged that ridiculous post?
i must have lost my sanity.
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and so,
feeling so dejected the whole night,
Ellene dear wanted to meet me for dessert buffet.
so yup,
she's gonna bring me.
and i'm so excited about it.
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supposed to make a trip down to school today.
but for several reasons,
it's postponed to tmr.
thank goodness Gary is okay with it.
shall go down to school after work tomorrow.
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to end,
thanks for everybody's concern,
and laopo please get well soon.

pathetic

uh huh,
i AM pathetic.
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feeling so fucked up now.
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can't even find a friend to binge eating with me tmr.
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i am THAT pathetic.
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and i DESERVE it.
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CLARABEL LOW YOU SEE LA YOU.
EVERYDAY BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND.
NOW HE DON'T WANT YOU,
YOU GOT NO MORE FRIENDS.
YOU NEED SOMEONE,
NOBODY IS THERE.
WANT TO GO AND VENT YOUR ANGER?
WANT TO GO AND GORGE YOURSELF WITH ICE-CREAM?
WANT TO GO AND DROWN YOURSELF IN THE LAKE?
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GO LOR.
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NOBODY CARES.
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NOBODY IS THERE, ANYWAY.
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STUFF YOURSELF WITH ICE-CREAM,
ALLOW YOURSELF TO GET MORE SICK.
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NICE ONE CLARABEL LOW.
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YOUR LIFE IS FULFILLING.
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THUMBS UP FOR YOUR WONDERFUL LIFESTYLE.

love quizzes

LoveTest Results for:

Clarabel Low & Siok Xue Qian

LoveTest Questionnaire Analysis:

Siok Xue Qian will break up with you, Clarabel Low!

There are always ups and downs in every relationship. Although you think you know a lot about your partner already, you might want to spend some more quality time together. Love, trust, understanding, affection, honesty, tolerance and loyalty are very important factors for a successful relationship. Think about what's still missing in your relationship and how you could improve it.

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Should you dump your boyfriend?

Your responses indicate that you may want to dump your boyfriend. If you don't want to dump him, let him know that he needs to become more loving and caring towards you. He needs to take more initiatives to ensure that your love keeps on blooming.
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work tmr,

still feeling very unwell.

cough, flu, sore throat.

ugh, sucks.

downhill

it's just like a roller coaster ride.
we went up,
then down really low,
and then back up a little,
and now,
all the way downnnnnn.
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there must be a reason why mothers are always the ones who nag.
they are the ones who always get paranoid over this and that.
they are the ones who get sensitive over the smallest issue.
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conclusion?
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FACE IT GUYS.
GIRLS ARE LIKE THAT.
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i mean,
nobody forced you to take us as your girlfriends.
and there you go complaining that we're stopping you from doing this and that,
and we are invading in your privacy and stuff like that?
there's a price to pay for having a girlfriend.
if you want personal space,
you're sick and tired of reporting your whereabouts to your girl,
THEN FOR GOD'S SAKE JUST BE SINGLE.
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personal space rhymes with cheating ways.
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if you're asking for personal space,
it means that you're allowing this relationship to go down the drain.
you need so much personal space?
then just get rid of your girl.
i'm sure you'll be able to breathe properly after that.
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so now what?
i'm a toy?
something for you to manipulate?
hey,
you can't get the best of both worlds.
love and affection comes with responsibility.
you can't just expect us girls to be all sweet and loving,
and then you make noise when we start asking where you went?
what you did?
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when we first got into a relationship,
it means that we accepted who you were, at that time.
and if you changed for the worse,
you can't possibly expect us to accept your bad changes right?
and when we don't,
you come and blame us for not being understanding,
you make noise when we try to stop you from becoming worse.
and then,
you get unhappy.
and the cycle repeats.
over the same issue over and over again.
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i didn't stop you from meeting your friends.
but when you tell me you'll go home at a certain time,
and you CONSTANTLY fail to keep your promise,
how do you expect me to trust you again?
worse still,
when i asked you how are we gonna solve this?
you actually said you'll increase the time limit longer,
so that you can fulfil it.
what rubbish?
i was so upset because you KEPT going home late.
and then?
you come and tell me that the solution to this problem is to allow you to go home even later?
excuse me?
are your brains burnt or something?
no wait,
it's not your brains.
it's your heart.
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your own selfish desires has overcomed the weight i have in your heart.
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you know i detest smokers.
you know i went to the extremes to stop you from smoking.
but yet,
you did it again and again and again.
so what now?
i'm supposed to accept you as a smoker?
i'm supposed to allow you to smoke as and when you please?
NO WAY.
the boyfriend that i first had does not smoke.
so why should i change myself and accept a smoker boyfriend now?
just because you changed,
it doesn't mean that i have to accept.
and when that happens,
we start a war.
and then?
it all becomes my fault for not being understanding enough.
what on earth is this?
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the boyfriend that i used to have dotes on me.
he devotes most of his free time to me.
i can accept it if you have commitments.
i know you are busy,
and i understand.
but why should i tolerate when you waste your sleeping time at night to do stupid things outside,
and reach home around 3 or 4am?
and then use your free time in the day to do your other stuff?
and then what am i left with?
i'm left with all the scrap transition time, you idiot.
the time i have with you is probably a few moments before you start classes,
a few moments before your cca starts,
a few moments before work?
why can't you use your rubbish doing night time to do your important things?
and then spend some quality time with me in the day?
WHY?
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so you sacrifice your important stuff for spending rubbish time outside at night,
and then you sacrifice sleep for your important things,
and then you sacrifice me for your important things.
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HUH?
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time management, hello?
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you know you are not like those ordinary kid out there,
who only has to juggle with schoolwork and probably cca.
you have your schoolwork,
you're the captain of your cca,
you have your flying commitments,
and there you are,
throwing hours of your life away,
doing nothing.
seriously,
what is this?
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and when i rather you catch up on your sleep than waste time outside,
you start getting unhappy,
and our quarrels start all over again.
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now what?
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1. wash my hands off your affairs.
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2. continue hoping for some miracle, and that you might return to the old you?
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3. give up on this relationship as it's too tiring.
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4. continue our up-down rollercoaster ride.
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fuck off.