okay people..

the second interview results are out already.guess what?

i got in!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heard from shanker that they eliminated 200++ people for those who have background.

aww.

i felt so so so lucky to have even got pass the first round interview.

aww.

so yesterday i went there with charmaine jie jie,

met her friend,

manqin

so both of us practiced in the room first.

after awhile,

the room started to get really cold.

and to prevent our fingers from stiffing,

we went out.

blah blah blah.

then interview time,

it's like..

10 others sitting there?

plus the instructor and seniors.

damn stressed luh

manqin was the first one.

i was second.

and there's this weird girl...

she wore a pink blouse and a white skirt.

and pink sandals,

with with with!! glass heel..........

it's like so off!

i remember seeing that at toys'r'us lor.

and she played sonatina album,

which was....

grades 3-5

cannot make it luh.

every one else was grade 7/8/diploma?

well,

i shall stop being evil.

anyways,

quite happy i got through though(:

as in, very happy!

i can't believe they chose me as one of the few out of 200++ people.

aww.

and,

great thanks to people who gave me support,

or well wishes.

yeah.

thanks thanks to hippoMAY, ellene, xueqian the dummy, qihui and the girls, shanker, eileen, mummy and tingie pig and of course,

ROBYN(:

she even got me a lucky charm.

so sweet of her huh?

(:

i'm happy today!

later meeting xueqian the dummy(:

oh yah,

today went to school for volleyball only.

lesson was cancelled.

volleyball is so fun,

but i seriously don't have the strength to throw the ball so far luh!

and and AND,

some idiot threw the ball so hard from the other side.......

AND AND AND!!

hit *some* part of me!!!!!!!!

ugh.

it hurts so badly!!!!

asshole
i'm so gonna kick his ass if i ever ever EVER find out who did that
argh.

well, i'm in a good mood today.

so i shall not be bothered.

this picture is for michelle the JIAO FACE!!! :P who ask you to irritate me. :P
this is for jinmay the hippo! and i'm no skinny pig okay!! :P

remember i told you guys that we played pirates in school? yeah. so these are the pics, and the treasure chest was drawn by me! :P
this is the evil ship, it's big and rich. -.-
this is a small little boat. they are gonna be invaded by the big pirate ship
yeah. and this is obviously my group members(: had so much fun with them.
from left: chantel, joleen, qihui and me. love them!

hellos people
i'm here before going back to school
-.-
sounds stupid right?
but my lesson finishes at 11am
and i have an interview at 6.30
so it's 7 and a half hour
so,
i came home to practice my piano too
i heard from shanker that out of all those who registered,
which is really really quite alot..
only 10 or 11 got through
and i happen to be one of them
i'm like so stressed up
ugh
out of 10,
who else can they eliminate?
aww.
but the seniors there are really really good
i saw them play a duet on the keyboard during open house
and i was...
so impressed!
i was even afraid that i wouldn't be able to qualify to get in
sighs
seriously,
i was totally shocked when i received the msg telling me that i passed the first interview.
i heard from charmaine jie jie that she has a friend who has completed her grade 8 and taking diploma now.
but she didn't passed the interview!
weird huh?
well,
gonna meet charmaine jie jie soon.
she's gonna open the clubhouse for me and her friend to practise first(:
bestest ever cousin(:
and jinmay the hippo said i over-worried.
cos it's just a CCA audition,
not some ABRSM exam or what
mummy agreed too!
but i feel even more nervous than the actual exam. :(
oh yah,
yesterday mummy said something very touching though.
she says it's their loss not to have me in their club!
haha
though i don't agree,
but at least i finally know that there's something she's proud of me.
well,
i got to go!
byes(:

i'm gonna step in with eyes staring at me
take my seat at the bench,
put up my book.
i start,
and i end.
as i walked out,
i hope to be saying,
phew! no wrong notes.
not damn,
i screwed it

this is me and dummy when we had fondue(:
he never fails to make me smile(;

btw,

it's my sister's birthday today.

and i made a pretty card for her(:

i think i got severe mood swings

i don't feel emo anymore(:

even if i lose all my old friends,

i still have my new friends.

and they are awesome(:

i adore all of them

especially chantel, joleen and qihui

and of course,

michelle the sotong!

and many many thanks to my beloved cousin,

charmaine low piggie!

feeling like an emo shit these days
but things are getting better i think
managed to buy my ear piece today
thanks to xueqian the dummy
finally.
now i shall have music to listen to on my long long journey to school
aww.
i still haven't recieved any e-mail telling me that i got through the klavien ensemble interview
T.T
shall emo and cry if i don't get through
i really want that CCA so BADLY.
i remember watching crime watch yesterday
and suddenly,
i'm filled with hatred and disgust for sick old man
damn it
the show was about this old man,
seducing/ tricking small school boys about 9 years?
and he led them to public toilets
and MOLESTED them,
and VIDEOED the whole bloody process down
damn it
no wonder the world is turning gay
just like what my pastor said just now.
if i'm a small innocent boy,
and i bloody got molested by an old man
i will definitely get confused.
and thus get involved with homosexuality.
it's because of these type of selfish thinking from stupid people,
that the world is going all wrong.
they are totally destroying a child's life just by doing such stuff,
for their own selfish gains
i am totally disgusted.
seriously,
what's happening to the bloddy world?
it's so friggin ugly,
filled with ugly people,
ugly things,
ugly problems,
and ugly ugly hearts!
damn it.
what's with fathers molesting daughters?
or even raping them?
OR OR OR,
sons raping mothers?
i understand that children of the age 4-5 tend to be more attracted to parents of the opposite sex(i just learnt this in school)
but it shouldn't be to the extend when your mother is old and retiring!
ugh.
eww
i hate the world
it's totally destorted.
i'm gonna eat more salads
i shall try not to be so soft hearted anymore
i'm gonna stand up and fight for my own rights
i'm not gonna let anybody step over me
i'm gonna just focus on my studies
why should i bloody care about others when nobody spares a damn thought for me?
why should i help others when nobody helps me back?
i'm sick and tired of all these shit

i thought an unlucky day only exists in primary school,
when we are forced to write a compo with that title
only then,
can we make up stupid stories and exaggerate as much as we can
but today,
is probably the day,
when so many bad things happen,
that it could be classified as "an unlucky day"
it was suppose to be a perfect friday,
a day that got me looking forward to
but it started bad,
and ended bad.
not to mention the in-betweens
do you know how it started?
it started with me waking up at 11.16
when classes starts at 12
and the journey there is an hour and 15 mins
i rushed,
i cabbed,
and i'm still late.
i quarreled with mum.
she's not being fair.
i lost my voice.
can't even tell the taxi driver clearly where i wanted him to speed to.
and i dropped my contact lense in the toilet and i couldn't find it.
it's brand new
T.T
and we're suppose to meet up today;
the E5 girls and me
meet up for dinner.
i was totally looking forward to it.
then?
jinmay can't make it.
luckily i kena birdshit on wednesday.
not today.
or i'll be totally depressed.
missed all 3 buses when i wanna go home from school!
it's like i'm at the other end of the overhead bridge when all the 3 buses i can take came
all together!
i missed all 3.
i waited like crazy.
i couldn't fit into the train cos it's after work peak hour time.
eventually i took the train to boon lay instead.
and i sat at the 2 person seat at the very end
and somebody with body odour had to sit beside me.
and he bloody alighted only at simei.
i missed bus 3 to go to coffeeshop to get my dinner
waited super long.
i was the first at the queue, damn it.
reached the stop,
the bus was too crowded, the mean singaporeans didn't make way for me to alight.
i only manage to alight 2 stops later.
still of walking distance..
so i walked to the coffee shop.
and i bought my dinner.
including daddy's dinner too.
and the coffee shop's electricity broke down
so i waited again.
power resumed,
got my food(s)
and dashed home before anything bad happens.
i NEARLY tripped and fall.
and if i did,
my laptop will be crushed.
thank thank thank GOD.
now i'm home,
i'm safe for the moment.
it just hope i won't get choked on anything later.

hellos!
quite some time since i blogged
kinda busy and lazy these few days
school's been great
loving it more with every passing day
during classes i came to learn lots and lots of incrdible stuff
lots of stuff about development and things
kinda chim,
but interesting
and i think my teachers are great
they always come out with lots of examples for us
i really came to understand lots of things though
and on wednesday i went for my interview for the klavien ensemble
hopefully i can get through
then i'll be super happy
and i don't know why i'm super enthu on that day
i went around shaking hands and asking names
-.-
i thought it would be hard to get in,
but i realised that those without any piano background are like much much much more than people with background
and those with back ground are like..
grades 2-5?
except for a few who has grade 7
so i seriously hope i can get in(:
and on wednesday we had play
it's the class that we study in the kiddy class,
with miniature tables and chairs(:
super cute
and we played games
me, chantel, qi hui and joleen played pirates
we were made to imagine
at first we were'nt that enthu,
until we started making ships, humans, pirates, crocodiles and many other things from scrap materials!
it's so fun luh
then eventually when lesson is over we had to demolish everything
so super sad
i'm very proud of my crocodile and treasure chest!
haha
though it's not very nice,
but i did it
so i'm proud of it
heh heh
and today i went for fondue with xueqian and my sister the piggie
we went to celebrate her be-early birthday
super super nice!
super super yummy!
and i'm so totally going back there again!
thinking about it makes me feel like floating
hees
tomorrow got stupid IT lesson
how boring..
shrugs
AND AND AND!
i may be meeting the girls tomorrow!
4e5 girls gathering
hopefully it works out
i miss them like loads!
if it doesn't, then me and jinmay the hippo shall go emo at some corner
:P
well,
actually i felt kinda emo few days ago
sigh
it's like i'm so faraway
at some corner where nobody cares
everybody is out there together..
having lunch,
waiting for each other's classes to end
but i'm there making new friends and stuff
yeah,
school's fun,
my friends are great
but what that used to belong to me seems to disappear,
or maybe it's just that i don't belong to the place where i used to belong?
i don't know
it's like your used to be friends are gathering without you,
because you no longer belong to their group
you don't belong to their school,
their class, or their clique
i know that i won't be included in any of their activities in the near future
and all i can do is just listen to them talking about their gatherings
ugh
i think i shall just hide one corner and emo

okay
and my dear sister is driving me nuts now
i think she's abit mad after doing all her algebra sums!
mummy told me to teach her
but i teach her whatever i know
some of them i really forgot already
and now she's talking to herself,
and throwing things at me to ask me stupid questions
and she's laughing to herself!
she she's using this super stupid pen with feathers on top of it!
so ugly!
oh great!
she just farted!
she's crazy today
yes
i'm trying to embarass her now
see if she still dares to be stupid!
and she just threw a packet of tissue at me!
mad women

hello people
i'm so tired
had such a tough week
i mean,
my course is not tough
it's the distance that is tough
it's so tough to wake up 2 hours earlier just to reach school on time!
or even nearly late
sigh
these days when i take train,
my blacking out problems are getting worse!
last time it's not so bad,
like once in a while
but now it's like..
almost everyday!
the problem is when i stand too long,
i'll start to feel unwell,
and soon my vision will be covered by blackish stuff
and i totally can't see
scary right?
after awhile then it clears off
and i'll be looking sickly and pale
sad right?
joleen says it's same as her
which is low blood pressure
sobs
i remember seeing doctor once and told him about it
and he tells me that it's because the weather is too hot!
well,
chantel and qihui ask me to see doctor on a rainy day,
so that he can't tell me that the weather is too hot!
haha
they are funny people
and nice people too!
hopefully we can all become good friends(:
well,
i love my classmates too!
all very funny people
haha
i simply adore school
not considering the fact that i have to travel so far!
carrying my super heavy laptop
plus 2 heavy textbooks too!
i remember telling the 3 of them that i'm gonna lose my balance and fall backwards!
it's really really heavy
):
and luckily,
after school on friday,
xueqian the dummy came to my rescue
otherwise i wouldn't make it home
i guess i have to be fitter!
:P
and i guess i made the right choice
even thought it's quite tough to go all the way to clementi everyday,
but i rather take a course that i like,
than be forced to take a course that i don't like.
even if it's near my house or what.
and i love the people in NP
they are all so friendly and great(:
i'm gonna try my best to do well in my course
hee!
can't wait for attachment to start!
i'm so excited
and i miss everybody so much!
poly life is so totally different from secondary school
sigh
hopefully there will be an E5 outing!
the damn classfund is still with me!

yawns,
haven been blogging for quite some time
busy with school and stuff
but not actually busy
it's because my school is so far..
that by the time i reach home i'm so late
anyway,
i feel that my course is getting interesting
and the people there are great
made alot of new friends
and hoping to get into that piano cca
hmm..
so where shall i start?
okay
lets start with monday
suppose to meet michelle the sotong for breakfast
but she spent the night at yan's place,
so she couldn't make it on time i guess
so we met at 7.45
and the shuttle bus policy is so crazy
apparently they don't allow poeple to stand
so when the seats are full,
that's it
we got to take train
it's like so stupid
then people wait wait wait,
and realised that they can't take the bus cos it's full
and then we'll end up being late
it's so crappy
ugh
nevermind
so both of us took train,
and at tanah merah,
michelle felt like puking,
so we alighted and dashed to the toilet
after that cabbed there
the cab fare was like..
ugh
heart pain
but nevermind
haha
so had lesson,
learnt a little on child introduction and stuff
after school went to cca feista
people were giving away free stuuf like coca cola zero
and tidbit like potato chips and stuff
okay,
so after that went back with charmaine jie jie and michelle too
then stayed over at charmaine jie jie's place
granny cooked lots of yummy food!
(:
talked, crapped, guitared
and slept about 12 plus?
woke up at 5 plus
super exhausting
then went for mac breakfast,
before meeting michelle to go to school
so tuesday was fine..
can't really remember much
then wednesday
as usual,
had school
but i met charmaine jie jie to school instead
then had this super retarded IT lesson
after that went for another lesson
i keep getting lost in the school!
it's like so big,
and every lesson is at different blocks
like how dumb
during lesson we played games..
(we play games every lesson)
to learn each other's name and stuff
and this game really made us remember!
you know..
it's that game where everyone had to sit in a circle,
and the person have to repeat the name the previous person said,
plus her own name
then the next person will have to repeat 2 names plus her own name
yah
and great,
i'm the last one
so i have to repeat everyone's name
so it worked huh?
-.-
then lunched with my classmates,
mixture of malays and chinese
and btw,
there are no guys in my class..
in the whole course there are only 5 guys
haha
anyway,
after that we went for our lesson in the kiddie class
it's so cute luh the classroom
mini chairs and tables
colour pencil and crayons,
and we have to write our names on the name tag and clip it on our shirts
it's so last time,
when we have our lessons in nursery
okay,
that lesson was so fun
we have to draw,
play games to introduce ourselves (again)
and act out stuff
it's like so fun
so after school xueqian the dummy surprised me by appearing at my school
thanks sweetie,
i'm very touched(:
and so i went to install my laptop stuff
and waited for charmaine jie jie to finish her lesson
after that,
we bought the hip hop jelly ice-cream,
you know the one that wobbles? :P
yah
then trained home
bought my dinner at nearby coffee shop
and watched tv at home
yupps
that's it
oh yah,
did i mentioned i joined volleyball for the sports and wellness module?
haha
i hope i'll do fine
:P
and if you're wondering why i'm blogging now,
it's because i have no school today
cos thursday is practical day
and practical only starts at the 3rd week
so,
yah
i slept like a pig today
happiness(:

boos!
haven been blogging for quite some time
busy preparing for helmi the melmi's birthday on thursday
yeapps
me and xueqian the dummy baked a cake(:
hees
but it was a failure
so we tried again
by then it was kinda late
managed to do the frosting all on time
but the whipped cream was too watery
so we just anyhow decorate with toppings
well
looks quite nice though
post the picture next time
(:
anyway,
cabbed down to downtown
when melmi went to throw rubbish
we turned off the lights and stuff
and put in the candle that can't be extinguished
haha
but we realised that we lighted the candles too soon
):
so we tried to extinguish the flame,
but suddenly remembered that it's a trick candle
oh well
then he came back,
and tried to blow off the flame
he huffed and puffed in vain
before his saliva filled the whole cake,
we took it off and put it in a cambro of water
then they had the cake(:
as happy as they can be
i'm glad that they like it though
hees
and yazid the monster still said he already prepared his will
-.-
just in case he die from eating my cake
asshole
:P
john the duckie said luckily got toilet in case he get tummy ache!
sobs
in the end all still fine and well lo
hopefully i can go for the subway chalet
if not then i guess you guys can just have fun without me
sobs
):

friday
today celebrated vernon's belated birthday
haha
in the morning went to school with michelle the sotong
took train
well,
it's a super rainy day
when we reached the place,
found the lecture theatre with lots of help from friendly people
and the people there are so friendly
it's like,
once we found a seat,
the people beside michelle asked her which course are we from
it's like so sudden
then they were like...
"oh me too me too!"
"i'm in early childhood too!"
like..
lots of them in early childhood
haha
and i realised that i'll probably won't have problems making friends
:P
anyways,
we joined the group that didn't go for the camp you see
those who went for the camp are like the enthus one...
nerdy ones...
my course has lots of nerds):
anyway,
after that michelle went to work
and i joined may and jia min to make sandwiches for our night picnic!
cute ryte?
so we picnic-ed at bedok reservoir
jin may even say that people may think that we're not humans
haha
ghost and spirits wandering around...
-.-
anyway,
talked alot
talked about our last time stupid pranks on teachers and stuff
after that cabbed down to vernon's place
simply love his house
simply gorgeous
jinmay even says it looks like a display flat
:P
after that jin may and jia min have to leave first
so me and xueqian walked them out
after that he piggie backed me up a tiny slope
haha
i'm too lazy to walk
:P
then slacked around,
sitting on his sofa that he has,
while the guys crowded around the computer to watch some break dancing thingys
and i tried to throw the heavy pillows and them
in the end i keep missing and kena throwed back
):
played guitar and broke a string
:(
the string snapped my hand
painful
):
after that cabbed home
and left my phone on his sofa!
stupid me


saturday
collected my phone from vernon at tanah merah mrt station
i asked xueqian to morning call me
and when he called i thought i'm super late
i think i uttered some nonsense to him
i guess he was shocked
haha
well,
after that vernon has to go down to cinei for jamming
and i met jin may to rot
had long john
then went for my piano lesson
bought kuehs for mummy
then came home and chatted with charmaine jie jie the piggie
chatted for quite long
until my mummy starts nagging
well,
staying over on monday night!
happy
can go to school together
(:
happy happy mood
please rain now

here are the zoo pictures(:

hahas. trying to be funny here :P
us in front of tiny penguins. super cute(:
lioness. roar! watch out! faster run!!
told you to run! now she sees you! haha.giraffes(: tall and slim. my dream figure >.<

haha. dummy standing in front of peacocks
now my turn to stand in front of peacocks.
can you see the tiny monkey there? at the right!
can you see the monkey clearer?
i'm sure you can see it now. :P

zoo(:

i went to the zoo yesterday with xue qian the dummy

took train,

and we were sitting down

suddenly this cheena lady squeezed in beside xue qian

and we were like

huh?

like there's obviously no empty seat,

maybe he's too thin that's why she thought it was an empty seat?

i don't know what's her problem

then xue qian stood up,

and she happily sat comfortably

we were stunned

like..

what's happening?

anyway, we changed train at city hall

wanted to take train to kranji

then we were standing,

and this lady kept staring at us

then xue qian stared back

and suddenly she smiled back

i was like..

speechless

weird encounters though

well,

then we cabbed down to the zoo at kranji

bought admission tickets,

$16.50

had quite alot of fun though

and he threatened to throw me down to the crocodiles

):

evil ryte?

and we saw cute little squirrels,

and 2 naughty monkeys

they were like chasing each other here and there

super cute

if only i didn't lose my camera
):
curse that bastard who stole it
anyway,
here are the pictures

us with a parrot(:

i can't seem to post the rest.
maybe later i'll try again):

hmm
children these days are so lucky!
the toys are increasing in so many varieties
i remember when i was young,
the basic toy is probably just a stuffed toy or teddy bear
or else maybe a cooking set?
when i was young, the cartoons are like..
tom and jerry, mickey mouse?
bugs bunny?
and now?
they are like so hard to find.
if i ever get married and have a child,
i'll wanna have a pair of twins
haha
that'll be so cute don't you think so?
then i'll buy little animal clothes
like a bumble bee suit?
completed with a little hat
oh my gosh!
so super super cute
or a bunny suit will be damn cute too!
white with pink ears
then i'll force my children to wear it
i don't care.
and i'll buy a rocking horse,
playhouse, lots of stuffed cuties
'oh mann
having a kid is gonna be so much fun
haha
can't wait for school to reopen
then it'll be children everywhere
can't believe it mann
though many people say my course have no prospects,
but it's my interest though
no prospects then next time be a stay home mummy and play with children everyday
haha
what a good life
then my husband will have to earn alot of money
:P
okay
it's still too early to talk about such things
ugh
but can't believe that i'm turning 20 in like 3 years time?
time really flies
suddenly the five for fighting song, (100 years)
came to my mind.
i still remembered that we wanted to play that for prom
-.-
15, there's still time for you
time to buy and time to lose yourself

sometimes i just wonder
what's in your head?
i'm really curious..
what's wrong with you?
as an adult, you should be setting good examples.
what's with all the shit of giving and taking back?
or even worse, just taking?
i love you, but i don't respect you

yawns.
yesterday i worked
and dhanie the frog was so sick
he tried to make me smell his hat
ugh
sadistic
and he said i was trying to seduce him when i glare at him
crazy frog
anyway,
today went out with xue qian the dummy
went to watch the bucket list
was quite a nice show though
haha
funny show
after that ate billy bombers the haagen dazs ice-cream
so heavenly(:
he promised fondue next time
hee
so hopefully we're not working next friday
then we can have a fondue day out with vernon(;
btw, happy birthday vernon!

dear jinmay,

hey jinmay,
just a tiny dedication to you
maybe things haven't been going on so well for you these days
maybe false hopes and stuff makes you feel terrible
but it is these things that makes us grow stronger and prepare us for the bigger things next time in life!
you are a very nice and sweet girl,
and you never fail to help friends in need
so you may not have good returns now,
but i'm sure your kindness will all be paid out.
who knows you may marry a rich guy who dotes on you and you'll be living happily ever after?
and lastly, don't forget that you still have friends like me and anabel to be here with you!
you have fate with the bels(:
yupps
and goodluck for your poly life
may you be successful
loves!

muffins!

today was so fun
jin may and ana crashed my house
baked chocolate muffins and vanilla fairy cupcakes!
wasn't successful at first
but somehow we managed to turn things around
haha
well
we keep getting scared by the contraction of my oven
-.-
it makes a loud sound all of a sudden
soon, we ran out of paper cups
so we went out to buy some, and get bubble tea too(:
loves
i've been consecutively having bubble tea for 13 days
yay(:
i'm getting sick of it though..
after that i taught them piano and guitar
just the basics and stuff
i wanna learn violin
):
well, had a great day
my sister loved my muffins!
yummyness(:
after that went to downtown to pass xue qian muffins too
when we're on the bus, we saw this very angry-fying scene
the maid, sat on the bus seat, while the boy remain standing
we're so totally disgusted mann
and when the boy tried to squeeze in, she didn't even make any space and just ignore him
eww
so disgusted
the world is filled with ugly people!
what happened to that world with blue clouded sky and rainbows?
i wanna turn my life back to many years ago,
when i do not have to worry about things
when everything was so perfect in my eye
but as time goes by,
the perfectness of everything faded
and what's left behind are the ugly scenes
what happened?
don't you realise as you grow older,
the bad things are rising in percentage?
i don't understand how can a human be so selfish..
it breaks my heart to see this ugly world
whatever.