oh, like whatever.

and so,
papers are over, like finally.
i have to admit that i didn't put in much effort for both papers.
i don't expect good results because i don't deserve it.
but however,
luck was on my side.
and those that i studied came out.
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Monday.
met laopo for lunch before the paper.
after lunch had yogurt and then went kiap kiap.
spent 5 bucks in the shop,
didn't catch anything,
but the guy that worked there was so nice la.
he dropped the toys into the box for me.
and he even allowed me to change it for the toys that i wanted.
had 7 or 8 super cute keychaines.
it's really super cute.
post pictures of them next time!
off we went to school.
and the happy me was so happy with the toys.
didn't even bother to revise my notes before the test.
after paper,
went off to plaza sing with banana xinyi and cs.
ate jap food,
and then,
kiap kiap!
omg.
spent hours in the shop,
each of us spent about 50 bucks.
brought a bag of toys home and a hello kitty pot.
-.-
exams caused us to lose our sanity.

Tuesday.
supposed to set off for genting with CS and emm.
4 days and 3 nights.
due to some unforeseen circumstances,
we decided not to go.
and there goes 100 bucks for hotel and transport.
rotted the day away at home.

Wednesday.
something made me REALLY mad.
i'm not gonna talk about it.
went for singing session with jia min and jin may.
totally moodless.
ended up lying on the sofa and allowing them to entertain me.
met laopo around 9.
had my dinner,
and then off we went to powerhouse.
anger venting session.

toilet at vivo.



as usual, bourbon and cola.
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non stop dancing for more than 3 hours.
some guy asked to dance with me,
and i told him i'm lesbian.
he was shocked.
then he went back to his friends,
his friends laughed at him.
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saw zhao wei.
shocked to see him there,
he was shocked to see me there too.
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my poor feet was stepped/ jumped on by some stupid people 5 times at the dancefloor.
damn angry.
i swear i'm going to wear heels next time.
heels that are sharp and pointy.
i'll step them back.
i swear.
i shall ignore the fact that i will look damn tall with heels.
i don't care.
i had so many scratches and blisters la.
ROAR.
damn angry.


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left the club at 3 plus.
went to our locker,
and a poor girl was sitting by the corner,
trying to open her locker.
but i think she was drunk,
and she had no friends with her.
she couldn't put her key into the keyhole.
we helped,
and realised that her key cannot open the locker.
i think she forgot which locker she kept her stuff in.
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cabbed to laopo's place.
showered,
she lent me her clothes.
and then,
she cooked for me.
♥
mushrooms with prawns.
she knows i love mushrooms.
i felt so loved then!
and i forgot to mention,
we bought the mushrooms before we went to club.
that poor packet of mushrooms was stuffed into the locker.

tadah.
made with love.
our legs were on the verge of breaking la.
so damn tired.
and she still insisted in cooking,
while i sat down at the kitchen and waited.
love you la laopo! (:
and we had maggie mee too.
ate while watching MTV,
lady gaga bad romance was featured.
:D
:D
:D
so in love with lady gaga!
everybody at the club went high when bad romance and poker face played.
:D
:D
:D
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okay,
so we slept after that.
stephi, her dog,
squeezed with me again.
left her place in the morning.
so damn tired.
went home,
bathed and slept.
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and so,
that was today.
had dinner at coffeeshop with daddy and tingy.
he ordered a bottle of tiger beer.
shared with him and he turned red really quickly after a few sips.
he then opted for sprite while i finished the rest of the beer.
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supposed to go out with the girls tmr.
but i doubt i can make it becauseeeeeeeeeeee.
mum's on mc and dad's on leave and it's compulsary for me to stay at home.
what nonsense is this,
ROAR.

Greed

i don't get it.
why are humans greedy by nature?
why can't we all be satisfied with what we have?
it's so disgusting.

you have people who are power hungry.
greed for more power and control over certain things.
i don't get it.
what's with getting all the power and controlling something?
don't be dumb.
it just means added responsibilities.
hello?
life is tiring enough.
why are you looking for trouble for yourself?
it's okay to aspire to be a leader.
it's not okay to backstab people and push people down,
just to get yourself up.
disgusting.

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and then you have people who are extreme attention seekers.
what do you need so much attention for?
so that more people can criticise you?
the more you try to get attention,
the more disgusted and amused people are.
what's wrong with leading an ordinary life?
with loving families, friends, and a partner.
why isn't that enough?
continue doing what you're doing.
you can just simply see the amount of hatred people have for you escalating.

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next, overwhelmed by your own sexual needs and desires.
hello?
you need to fuck someone so much?
go and get a whore.
don't target young and innocent victims.
are you too broke to spend $50 on a prostitute?
if yes,
then just keep your fucking dick zipped inside your pants.
DO NOT LET IT OUT, DAMN IT.
ever so often,
we have cases of young girls getting raped or molested on their way home.
we have cases of girls getting molested during countdowns or events.
and you fuckers don't even let us off when we take public transport.
seriously,
just because we are young,
it doesn't mean that we are an easy target.
i have plenty of encounters with such assholes.
molesters, flashers.
i slapped a guy on the bus before.
i smacked a guy's hand on the train before.
i stepped on a guy's foot before.
a flasher followed me to my doorstep before.
a guy squeezed my butt in the swimming pool when i was young.
a classmate jumped onto me and hugged me in primary school.
and some others,
which i can't recall now.
you see!
why can't these horny bastards just keep themselves at home and watch porn?
pornography is so easily accessible now.
stop ruining the lives of our young ones in the society you faggots.
you destroy their lives,
you make them feel unworthy,
people look down on them,
and you SCAR them for life okay.
stupid assholes.
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and the second kind,
boyfriends who take girls as sex slaves or toys.
it is OKAY, if you treat the girl well and you really love her.
it is NOT OKAY if you lie to the girl about how much you love her,
just for fucking's sake,
and then abandon her when you are done.
i admit,
sometimes we girls are too dumb,
because we get blinded over sweet talks easily.
BECAUSE WE TRUST THAT YOU REALLY LOVE US.
so bastards out there,
just STOP taking advantage of this weakness we have.
it's just simply disgusting.
and you know what?
i recently found out that guys in US are having a petition,
which is,
TO BE GIVEN A CHOICE OF WHETHER THEY SHOULD TAKE RESPONSIBILITY OF THE CHILD THAT THEY FATHERED.
omg.
what on earth is this?
hey,
when you guys put your fucking sperm inside us,
we are the ones who have to suffer okay.
suffer with the bloody symptoms,
the morning sickness,
the nauseous feelings.
we are the ones who have to bear with our body ballooning up into some enormous freak.
WE ARE THE ONES WHO HAVE TO AVOID CERTAIN KINDS OF FOOD OKAY.
we are also the poor ones who will be accused of not practising self love,
and we are the ones who will be mocked at by others.
for those young girls who are pregnant,
THEY ARE THE ONES WHO HAVE TO STOP SCHOOLING.
and you fuckers?
you can carry on with your lives as per normal.
and you feel that shagging a girl and making her pregnant is something awesome?
YOU DISGUSTING FUCKING MAGGOTS.
and how dare you start with that petition?
after suffering for 9 whole months,
the only thing you fuckers can compensate us is probably to pay for the child's expenses.
is that too much to ask for?
if the government ever approve such nonsense,
the world will turn into chaos.
girls should start this petition.
MOTHERS HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHOOSE IF THEY WANT TO KEEP THE CHILD AFTER GIVING BIRTH. THE FATHERS SHALL NOT BE GIVEN A SAY.
isn't this better?
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and also,
i think rapers should be castrated before being sent to life imprisonment.
and they should be locked in cells with muscular and burly cellmates.
probably those who robbed.
robbers have to be physically fit right?
otherwise how can they run from the police?
okay.
castrated rapers should be locked into cells that consists of gangsters and robbers.
that's better.
you shall see what those people do to you faggots.

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and then, you have people who are greedy for money.
i mean,
who doesn't enjoy having more money to spend?
if i were to be a thousand dollars richer,
i would be damn happy.
BUT,
it's not okay if you are a compulsive gambler.
to the extent that your family suffers with you.
stop imagining that you will get rich overnight by gambling.
there is a reason for gambling booths to be surviving.
it simply means that the odds of you striking a fortune is very low.
get it?
stop imagining and living in the clouds.
come down back to earth and start living a decent life!
if you are that capable,
then why are you gambling your life away?
why must you drag your family down with you?
taking your daughter's pocket money away from her to gamble?
taking your daughter's piano school fees to gamble?
taking away months of her working pay away to gamble?
and always promising that you will return.
but did you?
you only took more.
what nonsense is this?
you jolly well know that your daughter is a softhearted person.
and hence,
she doesn't wish to reject you.
but it doesn't mean that you can continue doing it, right?
when will you stop this and start resuming your responsibility as a parent?
other parents provide their child with material needs or wants.
your daughter has to provide herself with material needs okay.
not even talking about material wants.
and that's why a part time job is needed.
and then,
you just come and take away everything from her,
promising that you'll return over the weekends.
but did that day ever come?
NO.
other children ask their parents for the latest gadgets.
whatever ipod, itouch, iphone, psp, xbox, and whatever.
your daughter has to save her money and pay part of her own laptop to reduce the burden of her mother.
JUST BECAUSE YOUR GAMBLING HABITS MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE FAMILY.
what nonsense is this?
ROAR.
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I AM SO ANGRY NOW THAT I CAN EAT A LION.

♥

exam in 12 hours' time.

and i'm not even halfway through!
writing notes like crazy,
baby dee entertaining me online,
and then suddenly,
he's at my doorstep to pass me his jacket.
i'm so bringing it to school tomorrow.
lalala~
he's been surprising me alot lately,
and i'm indescribably happy.
okay,
i can float to the clouds now.
hehehe.
hang on,
i still have exams to study for.
ROAR.
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back to my slides.
such a spoiler.

hindrance.

chinese new year,
the typical thing.
reunion dinner,
visiting,
and i thought i saw CS on sunday.
turns out to be,
it really was her!
more visiting,
kay poh cousins pestering for information about dee,
tingy betrayed me and told them about him.
thanks alot sister. -.-
ate the same food over and over again.
i swear,
i had chicken curry for EVERY single meal since saturday.
plus,
my mum cooked a HUGE pot of curry that is supposed to survive us for a few days.
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new colleagues,
friendly and nice.
baby dee surprised me by picking me up!
he then went to my place to visit,
and then we went out.
had dinner at fig and olives.
caught a movie,
percy jackson and the lightning thief.
was reluctant to, at first.
but the movie was good.
:D
homed.
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today.
dee came over to my place to studyyyyyyyyyyy.
had lunch at coffeshop,
vermicelli again!
study againnnnnnnnnnn.
was not productive for me at all.
but at least he studied!
thanks xinyi dear for sending me notes. (:
went out after that to meet cousin and ryuta.
e!hub.
jap food for dinner.
sushi and ramen, yum.
wanted to go prawning,
but it started to drizzle.
went to the arcade instead.
played till our arms could take it no longer.
and fabulous dee placed his card in the pocket,
and he played the basketball game,
and the card tapped through his pocket.
so we had 8 more tries for the basketball game.
and we all know,
that game can cause temporary arm damage.
we were exhausted by the time we cleared the 8 games.
homed after that.
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i'm so dead.
exam's on friday.
i'm not even done with ONE chapter.
so deaddddddddddd.
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whatever luh huh.
do what you want.
i can't be bothered,
anymore.

hallelujah chorus!

finally finally finally over and done with projects.
i can almost hear the hallelujah chorus.
seriously,
i owe bobby 10 cartons worth of thanks!
i wouldn't be able to complete the IT assignment if it's not for your help.
thanks bobby,
my brother from another family.
:D
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met bobby at coffeebean today.
he taught me how to do the basic basic stuff,
and i was so fascinated luh.
i sent him the assignment descriptor yesterday night.
i haven't even looked at it.
and then,
he actually printed it out and highlighted the important parts and analysed the whole thing for me.
i felt so guilty luh.
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and anyway,
he went out to smoke,
and i was trying to figure out the button thingy.
and then,
baby dee plopped and sat beside me.
i got a shock luh.
but nevertheless,
a sweet surprise.
(:
bobby left for school,
i bought cup noodles and shared cheesy hotdog with dee while walking home.
he left for school,
and i followed him to the bus stop.
wanted to buy ingredients for dinner,
and i bumped into tingy!
bought the things,
went home to cook.
fish porridge for my family for dinner.
hehehe.
potential housewife.
:D
i just realised that i didn't eat the cup noodles that i bought for lunch luh.
-.-
and then killed ten thousand brain cells while completing IT,
and tadah~
i'm done.
happy happy happy.
oh yes,
while doing the project just now,
i kept seeing a black moving figure.
i thought i was on the edge of having some severe mental disorder.
or perhaps i was too tired.
that black figure kept appearing while i was typing away.
i took off my glasses,
and then,
the culprit of the black figure was found.
an ant was crawling on my glasses.
-.-
stupid ant.
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to end,
lee xin yi i'm so happy for you! ♥

pineapple tarts

brief update.

my mum says i look like a kid here.
tiffany laopo got a shock too.
hahaha.



hahaha.
he stuffed jelly into his mouth.
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okay,
chinese new year is coming.
totally not looking forward to it.
mum made pineapple tarts for our relatives on sunday.
tingy and i helped out.
mum did the dough,
tingy and i rolled the pineapple paste into balls.
we were so sick and tired of it that we started laughing and having dumb conversations.

tingy : Jie, it's quite dumb to have to say happy new year to everyone at granny's house right? i mean, we have to keep shaking everyone's hands and repeating the same words right?

me: *rolling the pineapple paste* uh huh, why?

tingy : i think we should just bring a loudspeaker and announce 'happy new year' once and for all. save time and effort.

me : *stop rolling and burst out laughing*

tingy : *stop rolling and burst out laughing too*

me : like that then imagine if everybody bring loudspeaker, wah, chaos leh.

tingy : *laugh even louder.*

mum : oie! the 2 of you, better concentrate on your pineapples hor!
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tingy : crazy girl.

me: tingy, i think i woke up from the wrong side of my bed today.

tingy : yea, wrong side plus upside down.

me : laugh even more.
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after rolling for what seemed like years,
i decided to help mum to vacumm and mop the floor.
when the house is squeaky clean,
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me: mummy, you see i so guai (obedient) , you should reward me mann.

mum : hmm. ya what, i reward you mah. i bake one container of pineapple tarts for your BOYFRIEND leh.

me : dumbfounded. mum! that's not rewarding ME what. you're benefiting him, not ME.

mum : aiyah, same lah.

me : -.-
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baking pineapple tarts can be quite rewarding when you have huge entertainment sources.
:D
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monday
PEC lecture.
caught hachiko with baby dee after school.
great movie.
lots of sniffing heard in the theatre.
but not me.
baby dee wanted a dog even more after the movie.
but oh well.
make do with hamsters okay?
(:
he sent me home before going off to climb.
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tuesday.
chn lecture at 9am,
i woke up at 9am.
gave school a miss.
baby accompanied me for lunch during his break.
he went off to school.
tingy came home,
we went off to deliver mum's pineapple tarts to our fellow relatives.
granny's place for dinner after that.
homed.
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today.
was sleeping so soundly when i woke up and picked up a call.
freaky thing is,
my phone was on silent mode,
without the vibration.
but i picked up the call when baby called.
intuition, i guess.
lunch and off to school i went.
IT lesson was disastrous.
all of us were so screwed with the dreamweaver and flash project.
regret skipping classes now.
emm and i were figuring out how to link this and that,
but,
failed miserably.
xinyi and CS were trying to make their animations move.
succeed a little.
oh noooooooooo.
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dinnered with laopo in school.
went off for frozen yogurt at bugis.
JCO's frozen yogurt, thumbs up!
homed after that.
told mummy what's been bothering me these days.
felt alot better.
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tomorrow.
bobby's gonna meet me,
and save me from the evil clutches of dreamweaver.
yay.
:D

math corner!

did my math corner in the centre!
drew cupcakes and candies and whatevernots.
thanks tingie and baby dee for helping me with the cutting!

p.s
i drew it,
not photocopied!
everyone who saw it thought it was photocopied.
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this little boy tried to block my view while taking the picture!

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fabulous ellene uploaded our sec 2 pictures on facebook........
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DNT teacher was demonstrating how to do the twinkle twinkle punishment.
i had to do it because i didn't bring my workbook.
we had to do 100 or 200 of it i think.
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seriously la.
like small kid sia!
omg.
how did i ever grow from that.
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going off to vivo for shopping with mum and sis now!
and before i leave,
omg.
baby please don't kill me.
:D
i know you won't.
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HAHAHA!
my boyfriend, sec 2!

Animal picture book

my animal picture book!

okay,
it's supposed to pop out.
but somehow,
failed miserably.
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brief update.
wednesday.
attachment,
this little girl kept sticking to me throughout the day.
she wasn't from my class,
so she kept following me everywhere i go.
she waited for me outside the toilet while i was inside.
cute or what?
then she started crying and i carried her,
and she conveniently drooled on my hair.
omg.
suicidal thoughts please.
KE,
dinner at cheers,
and cabbed home with cousin and fryderyk.
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thursday
i can't remember what happened.
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friday
work till closing.
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saturday
did opening till 4pm.
homed,
prepared,
and met up with sec school mates.
vernon and ivan going NS soon.
hahaha.
caught up with each other during dinner,
movie,
went to drink.
the guys spilled their love-sorrows out.
kinda entertaining.
dee kept 'encouraging' me to drink.
ended up quite high after that.
homed near 4am.
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sunday.
woke up with a buzzing headache.
but it didn't stay too long.
lunch with tingy,
homed and did my learning corner activities.
nearly went mad.
thank goodness for tingy and dee's help.
otherwise i wouldn't be able to complete.
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today.
attachment,
did my corner and conducted my lesson.
the little girl followed me everywhere i went again.
this time,
my mentor had to drag her out of the classroom because she refused to leave me,
and i needed to implement my lesson.
felt so sorry for her,
but,
oh well.
i'm going to school now.
:/
reluctant to the max.
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