seriously, fuck it.

seriously right,
life sucks.
life sucks because school sucks.
seriously luh.
Monday,
the first lesson,
the damn lecturer was being so fucked up.
i mean,
i agree that our work isn't as great as the other groups lah.
so?
you can't just simply pick on us and vent your anger k.
this stupid lecturer made it sound like we totally didn't put in ANY effort to do the damn thing.
oh please.
if we didn't,
we wouldn't even be able to stand in front of the class to present okay.
god damn it,
we even wore nicer clothes because of the presentation!
(i mean, partly because it's runway day for us)
BUT STILL,
we bothered to dress up.
so what if we're reading from the slides?
i DID elaborate on my parts okay.
i gave examples and explained.
i don't see why she has the reason to say such things about us.
just bloody say so if you don't like us.
just SAY IT.
and what?
we put you off because we're the first group to present and we're late?
for god's sake.
we have lots of classmates who came even later than us.
and obviously you wouldn't want us to start without the others in the class right?
please.
it's a monday,
there is bound to be traffic jams okay.
you're blaming us for what others did?
fuck off seriously.
to us, you said:
"so what if you show me statistics?"


to the others who did not put statistics, you said:
"it would be good if you include statistics"


see the fucking difference?
damn it.
AND,
you people as lecturers,
taught us not to humiliate children if they did something wrong.
and never ever scold them in front of their peers.
then what the hell were you doing?
you made us stand there in front of the class for 10 fucking minutes just to pick on our faults?
do you think you really deserve to be a lecturer?
you are not even practicing what you preach.
what is this mann?

WHY?
because they fucking think that we don't give a damn about school.
it's not that.
it's just that we don't put in the EXTRA effort that others did.
we're just being NORMAL.
not EXTRAORDINARY.
get it?
and what's wrong with that?
we're not fighting for the places in the director's list you know.
we don't wanna possess any source of threat to the others.
shouldn't you lecturers be happy about not having extra work to do?
seriously just fuck off.
my hatred for school is escalating.
no wait,
it's sky high already!
ARGH.
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on a happier note,
i sort of completed my picture book.
another assignment down.
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gave school a miss today.
wasn't feeling too well.
went to swim in the evening and baby met me at the entrance of the swimming complex.
had dinner,
he was feeling fucked up too.
sweetheart,
cheer up.

picture taken 2 nights ago.
he claimed that he wanted to kiss me.
but it's not true.
he just doesn't want to take a picture.
):

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runway day,
xinyi and i.
we wore this for presentation.
please bear with my messy post.
the whole sequence is wrong and i seriously can't be bothered to do anything about it.
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OH NO.
i'm going insane.
how i wish i have a drumset with me.
i will whack with all my might and make a din.
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and omg,
my guitar string snapped.
ARGH.
cousin,
please fix it for me!
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i feel like practising beethoven's pathetique sonata now.
i want my arm to ache so badly that i will stop due to exhaustion.
i feel like banging my piano now.
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i feel like drinking to get drunk.
i feel like smoking to calm down
i feel like clubbing to get high.
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but all of the above,
can't be done NOW.
oh my,
life sucks.
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attachment tmr.
i hope my voice is so hoarse that i can't talk to the kids.
which means that i don't have to entertain them.
and it means that i do not have to implement my lesson.
thumbs up for that thought!
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okay.
i need to go back to my assignments now.
enough of ranting for the moment.
i hope i have better things to blog about tmr!