have you ever felt that today is a,

"i need a hug day"

but yet,

you realise that the person that you need the hug from,

is the person who you do not wish to talk to/ see at the moment?

Friday

school in the morning,

FM lesson.

during the lesson,

we realised that we have done alot of things wrongly for project

crappppp

after that was lunch with the girls,

ice-cream with chantel

went to the underpass to study for our test at 3 pm

after that,

we started to discuss our plans for someones' birthday

was being all excited and stuff

and all the plans of hiding here and there

to our dismay,

the whole thing has to be called off

because the birthday girl was off somewhere else

:/

oh well

had the test

i hope i pass!

after school,

homed for a while,

then went out to get my hair highlighted.

i like it

(:

was being all excited about meeting friends in vivo

even bought something for someone

yet when i was on the train,

i was told to go home

just because i can't stay out too late for some reasons.

fine.

alighted at aljunied mrt station

took the other train back to bedok.

decided against taking it back to tamp cos it's far too bloody stupid to take the train at tamp and alight and tamp for nothing.

dumped the thing i bought for that someone

i felt that the dustbin deserves it more.

on the verge of tears.

disappointment is not the word.

perhaps it's angry or upset?

but i just figured out

it's HURT.

i can't believe i'm making a trip to vivo for nothing

but yet,

halfway there i'm already told to go home.

i hate this

i hate it when people don't regard me as someone.

they regard me as something.

i hate it.

why do my efforts always seem to go unappreciated?

why?

i hate this feeling.

i hate to be treated like shit.

i hate to feel like a fool

i hate it when i'm happy for something,

yet,

it's brushed away.

as if as i don't even matter at all.

fuck it okay.

i don't bother.

tan jin may my angel called

thank you so much for that call.

if it wasn't for that,

i would have died from bursting with emotions

don't act like you care when you don't