the world's no longer the same

tags replied:

hui hui : yup thanks.

jin may : love you too.

yan zong : yupp thanks.

ghost : i know. thanks.

xueryl : yupp. don't worry. thanks for your concern.

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13 common symptoms of depression

you can’t sleep or you sleep too much

it's either lying in bed awake till the next morning,

or falling asleep at 11pm until noon.

you can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult

piano playing has become more difficult...

can't seem to complete a song.

can't focus on reading,

be it books or school work..

just can't seem to keep my eyes on the words.

you feel hopeless and helpless

kinda hate my existence.

feel that i'm useless.

nothing seems to make me feel better.

you can’t control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try

seriously cannot control..

destroy stuff to vent my anger,

pull my own hair,

pinch myself,

scratch myself,

slapped myself when i saw my reflection.......

you have lost your appetite or you can’t stop eating

it either no appetite the whole day,

or weird and sudden food cravings.

you are much more irritable and short-tempered than usual

take my anger out on people..

hence would rather be left alone.

irritated very easily.

get angry over the slightest things.

break combs and pencils to vent my anger.

you have thoughts that life is not worth living

feel that it's so tiring to continue on with life.

pop pills to make myself sleep,

but end up staying awake the whole night.

you tear frequently and cry for no reason

sudden flow of tears while taking a bus ride

sudden crying when i'm trying to fall asleep.

cry over matters which i won't bother in the past.

you feel a loss of energy

Feeling fatigued and physically drained.

Even small tasks are exhausting or take longer.

tired the whole day but yet unable to sleep at night.

you withdraw yourself from certain friends and family

don't wish to talk much to school friends anymore.

quite cold to certain people at times.

but yet i'm still quite normal to lovelies like may, cheryl and tiff.

you self-loath

Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt.

hates my reflection.

Harsh criticism on myself of perceived faults and mistakes.

hated myself for not being able to remember to bring or do certain things...

you do things that you loath
picked up bad habits which i used to dislike.

wants to punish myself by doing things i hate.

you find pleasure in self inflicted pain

loves the way my skin reddens after pinching.

loves the way my head throbs after pulling my hair.

loves the stinging sensation on my cheek after the slap.

way to go,

clarabel low.

you got 13 out of 13

that's full marks.

keep it up.

(: