The wake up call

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cousin : yup. i love you too.
hui hui : i'll take care.
chantel : don't worry. glad to have you girls in school.
cs : yup. i'll be okay.
qihui : don't worry. thanks for everything in school.
yan zong : yupp. don't worry. told you not to over-react.
tingy : i love you too sister.
evelyn : what a surprise to see your tag. thanks for your concern.



and to a very special person in my heart
CHERYL

thanks for everything.
really.
be it the random meetings,
the donuts,
the eeyore,
the cake thingy,
and all other presents....
thanks for being there for me, always.
thanks for bringing me out to unwind.
thanks for making the effort to make me feel better.
thanks for coming into my life.

really appreciate everything.
really.
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and to my other lovelies like jinmay and tiffany,
thank you for being there with me.
you girls filled up my life with so much love, hope and concern.
you girls never fail to show how much you care for me.
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and of course to bobby,
you said i'm like a sister from a different parent.
that makes you my brother from another family.
thanks for baking those wonderful cookies for me.
it's your first time baking cookies,
and you baked it for me.
thank you so much.
it was something filled with love.
and i can really feel it.
thanks bob, my bro.
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to my school lovelies like chantel, joleen, qi hui, hui hui and of course, REGINA,
thanks a million for being there.
you people are the poor things who have to see my black face about 99 percent of the time.
being the first few people i see in the morning,
you girls have to bear with my moody outburst and horrible face.
yet,
you never give up trying to make me feel better.
all the drinks, food, snacks, and naggings,
forced me to take care of myself better.
thank you girls.
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and of course my closest people like dee, tingy, dad and mum,
you all are the ones who never fail to put the smile back on my face.
especially tingy who will try and be a clown for me.
and you cooked noodles for me,
for the first time in your life.
thanks my dear sister.
i promise i'll wait for you at your school bus stop next week when i do not have school.
i will be there.
and to my dearest sweetest dee dee
you are the poorest thing who has to suffer each and every of my attitudes
you have to give in to me on whatever i want or insist on.
yet you never fail to show your undying love for me.
i kept asking if you love me.
and your answer would always be a yes.
thanks for accompanying me despite being angry at me.
thanks for giving me a chance to explain.
and thanks for believing me.
i love you, and i truly do.

lastly,
adeline.
your text gave me the biggest shock.
which is why i named this post as the wake up call.
you're right.
i shouldn't be taking everyone for granted.
it's not that i want to.
i'm trying to get rid of my negative thoughts and behaviour.
with lots of help from others,
i'm able to get through it slowly now.
you mean alot to me,
and i can't bear to lose someone like you.
i know you'll always be there for me.
once i've braced myself up,
i'll be there for you.
love you girl.

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i shouldn't be taking everyone for granted.
i'm sorry.
love all of you,
who have become a part of my life.