sigh
little shy shy passed away
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hate the weather these few days
haiis
anyway, i went to church yesterday
and there is this lady who sort of testified luh
and she was saying..
love your enemies, as they were created by GOD too
somehow this sentence struck me
and i asked myself
can i really love my enemies?
can i really love them despite all the mean things they did to me?
can i really forget all the despicable things they did to cause harm to others for their own selfish gain?

i'm sorry

i can't.
do you know how does it feels like to have your phone, wallet and camera stolen?
do you know how does it feels like to see your friend giving you wrong information just to watch you get into trouble?
do you know how does it feels like for your buddy to make mistake on purpose to make you fail your exams?
how can i forgive them?
and needless to say, love them?
i don't understand
i don't do mean things to people
i don't steal
i don't sabo people
i try my best to help my friends in need
but when i really need someone?
all i had was myself.
when you feel so down and out,
nobody seems to be there for you
and even if you just want to bite on a bar of chocolate,
you realise that the supermarket/shop is super crowded
and the bus driver even chided you for paying extra
all i wanted was some kindness in this world
all it takes is just a stranger to smile

sometimes i just can't believe my life
i don't have a happy family like others have
i don't get to go out for dinner with both my parents
i don't get to have sunday family outings like others
isn't that cruel enough?
yet some asshole have to come and steal my stuff and make me totally devastated
and the stupid art that i've put in so much effort for gave me a C5
to ALL thieves out there,
if you really have the heart to exchange another person's misery for your own selfish gain,
go ahead
one day something so bad and terrible is gonna fall upon you
by then, i'll be happily adjusted to my life
while it's your turn to suffer
just wait and see
and to **
don't think i don't know what you've been trying to do to me all these while'
so what if you get better results than me?
your results are achieved by selfish and despicable ways
you too will get your retribution
i'm not gonna do anything
cos you will be duly punished in time to come
gosh i feel so moody