when things just go wrong

yesterday.

i went to look for the samsung camera service centre at jurong east during break alone.

i was told that the repair fees is going to cost at least 200 bucks.

so should i or should i not repair it?

i can get a new one with 200 bucks.

but,

it has sentimental value.

cherng shing accompanied me to eat before class.

bought something subconsciously for someone.

and decided to leave it at his doorstep.

then,

i do not wish to comment on anything else.

but thanks may and bobby for making me feel better.

so sorry to make you both worried when i cried.

today.

woke up with swollen eyes.

and my eyeliner is running out.

in class now.

attachment in the morning sucks.

the kids had a performance at St Lukes elderly care centre.

we were told to follow the kids.

i helped them to put on their make up.

after that,

we walked to the elderly care centre.

the teacher treated me like a maid.

i had to take the children to the toilet,

two by two.

so i brought like ten of them?

and that caused me to walk that same 'route' 5 times.

the kids didn't behave because they were excited to perform.

and when they made noise,

another teacher stared and hui hui and i.

implying that it's our fault that we can't keep them quiet.

please lor.

it's not even our responsibility okay.

after the kids performed,

the elders played a game.

they have to sit,

facing a partner.

and,

the partner was blindfolded.

so the game was,

to let the blindfolded elder feed the other one with a spoon.

and they are suppose to feed them milo ice-cream.

so super cute.

oh yes.

the elders wore very colourful glittery party hats.

it was so adorable.

after that,

they sang christmas songs.

i felt something tugging at my heartstrings,

because it was so heartwarming.

these old folks are so happy with such a simple little christmas celebration.

and they sang and clapped along with the music.

i couldn't help but to smile to myself.

when we wanted to go back to the centre,

the teacher told us to pack up and carry the props back.

they literally treated us like their maids la!

i was so pissed that i stomped off with a black face.

i heard the kids calling me,

but i ignored them.

frozen yogurt while waiting for haziyah.

and here i am in class.

the lecturer gave everyone time to do their projects.

but i've completed mine because my groupmates are off in vietnam.

so yah.

meeting laopo for dinner after class.

looking forward to it.

three days.

no explaination,

no apologies.

nothing.

so you expect things to go all right magically?

maybe i might lose some of my memory.

then things will be back to normal.

is that it?

you can pretend that nothing happened.

but i can't.

i just can't do it.

so?

what do you want?

we can continue this cold war forever.

i always feel lousy when i walk back from your place after leaving something at your doorstep.

because i always look back and you're never there.

and then,

you were there yesterday.

but?

did you even bother to attempt to clear things up?

you make it seem like everything is okay.

nothing happened.

so how can you expect me not to get pissed off?

if you think ignoring me for a few days to let me cool off is the best solution,

let me tell you now.

it's not.

it just shows that you don't understand me well enough.

you are capable of making me the happiest girl on earth.

but you are equally capable of making me feel the lousiest i've ever felt.

tears are shed.

smiles are fake.

why am i even typing all these out now?

you probably won't even read my blog.

forget it.

meant to

and so,

i had a bad week.

i hate bossy people to the max.

i hate it when people boss me around.

especially when they don't have the right to do so.

LISTEN UP.

no one except my parents have the right to boss me around.

so who the hell are you?

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and after a hectic week,

i swear that i officially hate project work.

individual work is the best,

because i don't have to bother about other people's opinions.

i don't have to live up to other people's expectations.

i can decide things for myself.

i can fail it if i want to.

i hate project work.

perhaps my EQ is not high enough to work with others.

maybe.

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the only great part of the week was saturday.

cos we had a performance.

it was at tuas,

that keppel marine thingy had an opening ceremony for the oil rig.

something like that.

and yes.

it was pretty grand.

the food served ain't packed rice.

we get to eat with the invited guests.

(:

wine and beer and cold rock smoothie were served.

salmon, salad chicken, shephard's pie and different sorts of pasta were served too.

and of course,

yummy, pretty little cakes for desserts.

performance went well.

i was being so uptight about things going wrong that i brough 4 pedals along in case.

and yup.

many thanks to the dears who could make it.

otherwise i would be skinned alive by SDAR.

most of my members couldn't make it.

so,

the 5 of us,

filled up a one hour slot.

i love my members.

they are such a joy to have.

some lecturers from np were there too.
they praised us.
and i felt so honoured to be the president of the club.
really.
i just realised that it's these kind of sense of achievement that motivates me to carry on.
i will be a better president.
i will bring the club up to a higher level.
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after that,
lynette, fryderyk, laopo and i went to tiong bahru.
stoned at mos burger for a long time.
talking, laughing,
making fun of fryderyk.
discussing bgr issues.
time flew pass.
and soon,
it was time to go.
frozen yogurt to end of,
and,

laopo,

i love you!

maybe i'm not the right one for you.

maybe

strangers

i've been meeting very nice strangers these days.

i left my laptop at kfc.

and walked off till somewhere else.

then a couple came up to my laopo and i,

holding my laptop.

for a moment we thought they were asking for directions

but they actually wanted to return my laptop to me.

another day,

laopo and i went to mos burger for dinner.

this very nice uncle came up to us and talked alot.

he then gave us 2 burgers to bring home.

yesterday,

after dinner with laopo,

i took the train home.

there were 4 people who came into the train.

on my left was 3 seats.

on my right was 1 seat.

so i moved to my right to allow them to be able to sit together.

they then looked at me and waited for me to turn and look at them.

and when i did,

they all smiled.

it was a genuine smile from the heart.

baby then came to pick me up.

he cycled me home.

had a talk about the future.

was planning ahead for our future careers.

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going over to granny's later.

coussie's gonna teach me to use photoshop.

thanks jinmay dear for helping me with photoshop too.

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if you don't matter to me,

i won't bother about your opinions of me.

you all can be self centered for all you want.

i don't care.

i will show you that i can do the same.

just wait and see.

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to end off,

tiffany laopo,

i'm so happy for you.

i know that you'll find a guy who's worth it.

i believe he is.

love you.

<3

smarties

i was sick this week.

but i had this huge craving for a super rich chocolately cake.

especially the one my workplace sells.

it's called triple chocolate.

it has gigantic chocolate chips at the side and the fudge on top is just so tempting.

then i had craving for smarties.

but it's so hard to find any these days.

):

but hui hui bought a tube for me.

such a sweetheart.

and baby dee bought me a whole pack!

that's my boy.

(:

on wed,

hui hui and i had our field supervision.

the kids were a handful that day.

very happy that we both passed.

that's all i ask for.

i don't dare to even ask for good grades.

the field supervisor came down to watch our lesson.

then during evaluation,

she asked us:

what is a vegetable?

we were at a loss for words.

she then started drawing mindmaps on vegetables,

branching out on the different parts of the plants that we eat,

etc.

both of us were stunned.

after that,

she asked us what is a mushroom.

we nearly fainted.

went down to school after that for IT lesson.

we were super hungry then.

lesson dragged on.

KE after class.

coffeebean with my wifey and fryderyk.

Thursday

i remembered it was a rainy day.

then baby came over.

cooked noodles for him and tingy.

they both then went off to school.

met mummy after her work.

she bought me a new laptop cos it pains her heart when i carry my very heavy dell laptop to school.

i love you mummy.

Friday

tingy and i went down to school.

to uninstall the old programmes from my dell laptop,

and install the programmes into my new laptop.

happy happy.

BK at simei,

then baby surprised me by appearing behind me while eating.

he then fell in love with my laptop.

homed with tingy.

baby picked me up after dinner.

wanted to catch 2012.

but tickets for the 8.15 show at century was sold out.

the ticketing person asked us if we wanted to catch the 9.15 show.

we said no.

we walked over to tm,

tickets for the 8.30 show were sold out.

we then walked back to century to purchase the tickets for the 9.15 show.

but it was already sold out.

HOW IRRITATING IS THIS.

we then decided to pass time by looking at hamsters.

baby then sent me home.

Today

woke up and mum prepared breakfast.

ate and went to work.

work was fine as usual.

thomas is forever entertaining.

made new friends today.

they are new.

hence,

i'm no longer the newest worker in berrylite.

hehehehe.

bought dinner and homed after work.

doing up my assignments.

just finished singapore families essay draft.

shall do ec's essay draft tomorrow.

Rainy mornings

i had work on sat and sun.

both mornings were rainy.

it was a nice start of the day.

work was fine.

vanessa told me about the story of berrylite.

tan jin may that sweetheart came to accompany me during my break.

was overjoyed.

love her to bits.

(:

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down with sore throat, flu, cough.

assignments pilling up.

have to implement lesson on wed.

teacher janice is nice enough to let me take the Nursery kids.

yay.

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giving KE a miss today.

feels so weird to break my record of 100% attendance.

i can't seem to find the motivation to get myself started on the assignments.

okay.

shall do up my lesson plan for attachment on wed.

yes.

do it now.

and,

charmaine low pei jun, you owe me some explaination BIG TIME!

how can you not tell me anything about it?

call me up soon k!

Learn to treasure

yesterday during PEC tutorial,

we were told to go for dialogue in the dark.

it's an exhibition in school.

it's totally dark,

and we were guided by a visually impaired guide.

he's really nice.

initially,

i was damn scared.

the feeling of having to move around in totally darkness just scared me.

in fact,

i almost wanted to back out the moment we stepped in.

we were given walking canes to guide us around.

it's really really scary.

but this whole experience made me realise how fortunate i am to be able to see.

we had to cross bridges,

walk on sand,

walk on pebbles,

purchase drinks,

identify fruits,

differentiate between the green and red apples,

use our sense of touch to feel the car plate number,

the car's colour,

and stuff like that.

it's really an eye opener for me.

hence,

if you're interested to go for this exhibition,

it's $12 for students and $20 for adults.

and there's an opening promotion now.

so everything's half price.

:D

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attachment today.

kinda heartwarming to see the kiddos,

especially when they remembered my name.

(:

week two of school

school really suck.

i don't like going to school.

):

and i am a terrible student indeed.

out of the whole week,

i only went for 2 days of lesson.

i'm terrible, aren't i?

mon was the first day of school.

ke after that.

i refused to stand on the shuttle bus on tues.

hence,

i decided to take a train there.

on the train,

i started seeing double.

and hence decided to give school a miss.

baby skipped his briefing at school to come over and accompany me for a short while.

wed was IT lesson for 4 hours.

how boring can that be.

but it wasn't too bad afterall.

thurs was selling of chocolates at NUS.

i went to school on fri,

at 9am.

to my horror,

class starts at 11.

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gave school a miss.

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celebrated our 4 years anni.

(:

a really simple one.

he bought new rings.

i gave him a scrapbook that i made with LOADS of effort.

seriously.

it took me like........

many many many days.

mum laughed at the scrapbook when she saw the section on baby's unglam pictures!

anyway,

seoul garden,

watched my sister's keeper,

it's a damn good show.

but i didn't cry though.

then bought stuff back to my home to eat.

tv and then baby went home.

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saturday was working at berrylite.

opening with thomas.

he was telling me about stuff,

that made me laugh like crazy.

my shift ends at 4.

wanted to clock out,

he cancelled the page.

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he refused to accept the fact that i can go off earlier than him.

bought cheesecake yogurt.

it's really really yummy!

rushed to expo to work for the chocolate fair.

tiring tiring.

my job was to stand there and make sure peopel don't steal things.

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how boring is this.

time literally crawled it's way through.

and,

singaporeans are indeed scary creatures.

when i was told to give out the free sampling chocolates,

i swear i had to fight for my life instead.

they really snatched their way through just to get that piece of chocolates.

and mind you,

it's a whole big group of them who did it!

scary!

time passed faster when jinmay's brother and i started talking.

ended up promoting the chocs together.

he's a really nice guy.

so may,

be nicer to him!

:P

today.

work at berrylite.

i was really late.

time breezed through with vanessa and thomas.

had some laughters.

and we were staring at a guy who had a distorted nose.

thomas said he obviously had a fight with someone.

oh well.

a whole new week of school is starting.

absolutely not looking forward to it.

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and one last thing to add.

p.s. i heard it on the radio.

when you smoke,

the cigarette does the smoking,

you, are the sucker.