yesterday.
i went to look for the samsung camera service centre at jurong east during break alone.
i was told that the repair fees is going to cost at least 200 bucks.
so should i or should i not repair it?
i can get a new one with 200 bucks.
but,
it has sentimental value.
cherng shing accompanied me to eat before class.
bought something subconsciously for someone.
and decided to leave it at his doorstep.
then,
i do not wish to comment on anything else.
but thanks may and bobby for making me feel better.
so sorry to make you both worried when i cried.
today.
woke up with swollen eyes.
and my eyeliner is running out.
in class now.
attachment in the morning sucks.
the kids had a performance at St Lukes elderly care centre.
we were told to follow the kids.
i helped them to put on their make up.
after that,
we walked to the elderly care centre.
the teacher treated me like a maid.
i had to take the children to the toilet,
two by two.
so i brought like ten of them?
and that caused me to walk that same 'route' 5 times.
the kids didn't behave because they were excited to perform.
and when they made noise,
another teacher stared and hui hui and i.
implying that it's our fault that we can't keep them quiet.
please lor.
it's not even our responsibility okay.
after the kids performed,
the elders played a game.
they have to sit,
facing a partner.
and,
the partner was blindfolded.
so the game was,
to let the blindfolded elder feed the other one with a spoon.
and they are suppose to feed them milo ice-cream.
so super cute.
oh yes.
the elders wore very colourful glittery party hats.
it was so adorable.
after that,
they sang christmas songs.
i felt something tugging at my heartstrings,
because it was so heartwarming.
these old folks are so happy with such a simple little christmas celebration.
and they sang and clapped along with the music.
i couldn't help but to smile to myself.
when we wanted to go back to the centre,
the teacher told us to pack up and carry the props back.
they literally treated us like their maids la!
i was so pissed that i stomped off with a black face.
i heard the kids calling me,
but i ignored them.
frozen yogurt while waiting for haziyah.
and here i am in class.
the lecturer gave everyone time to do their projects.
but i've completed mine because my groupmates are off in vietnam.
so yah.
meeting laopo for dinner after class.
looking forward to it.
three days.
no explaination,
no apologies.
nothing.
so you expect things to go all right magically?
maybe i might lose some of my memory.
then things will be back to normal.
is that it?
you can pretend that nothing happened.
but i can't.
i just can't do it.
so?
what do you want?
we can continue this cold war forever.
i always feel lousy when i walk back from your place after leaving something at your doorstep.
because i always look back and you're never there.
and then,
you were there yesterday.
but?
did you even bother to attempt to clear things up?
you make it seem like everything is okay.
nothing happened.
so how can you expect me not to get pissed off?
if you think ignoring me for a few days to let me cool off is the best solution,
let me tell you now.
it's not.
it just shows that you don't understand me well enough.
you are capable of making me the happiest girl on earth.
but you are equally capable of making me feel the lousiest i've ever felt.
tears are shed.
smiles are fake.
why am i even typing all these out now?
you probably won't even read my blog.
forget it.
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