days have been so miserable

three weeks passed

things were still hanging

till now,

it's over

take it or leave it,

it's your choice.

to me,

it's over.

it's so traumatising for me

painful nights

crying to sleep.

to the extent that,

i'm so afraid of my phone ringing.

to the extent that,

i walk with fear up the stairs home.

to the extent that,

love became fear.

or was it even love in the first place?

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loving someone,

does not mean that,

you need to own the person.

neither does it gives you the right,

to control him/her.

loving someone,

does not mean that,

you make him/her feel threatened nor miserable.

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thanks to everyone who's been with me during this time.

thanks for the listening ears,

and the heartwarming hugs.

thanks for defending me at times.

thanks to the girls and huihui, for taking care of me in school.

and listening to my woes.

thanks to may, ana, arun, boon and co.,

for being there

thanks to bobby and yan zong for advises.

and esp yanzong for protecting.

thanks to weihan, mingli, qinyuan, jingxiang, jacq, amelia for being there.

special thanks to tiffany,

for EVERYTHING.

too much to be spelt out.

but you're really a special and treasured friend.

and of course,

to xueqian.

no words can be used to describe how thankful i am,

for all the things you have done for me.

greatly appreciated.

and lastly,

my family.

i saw the love they have for me.

and how worried they are for me.

i love my friends.

i love my family.

and that's all that i need,

for now.

it's through problems,

that you realised,

how much certain people mean to you.

and it clearly shows,

the people who will be there for you.